My first Challenge for my DIY: EoG Challenge is supposed to be 1/2 written. Usually I have no problems putting my thoughts & words on paper, but this one has stopped me in mid step. As soon as I read it, my throat started to close up. I instantly thought, how odd....I dont clam up at blogs? WTH is going on?? It's not like I was asked to stand up and give a speech or anything, what's with my anxiety?
Well, who cares how I feel? Lets just get down to business. Lets get this challenge started!!!
"1. In your blog (dundundun), post a public declaration of your independence from your own oppression."
Then I sat down. I tried to start writing. What came out? Nothing. It's those words. PUBLIC. ick.
double ick ick. This blog is all about what pulls me down, sabotages my efforts, and keeps me at 224lbs (ME) and how I am going to declare INDEPENDENCE from MYSELF? Yeah. Ok. Now I know why the "yucky-pit-of my-stomach-throat-closes-cant-
breathe-feeling" showed up.
It's so personal I havent even tried to get to the root of it with myself. And now I'm going to do it PUBLICLY? Really? Yep.
You bet I am. Slowly. Surely. Eventually. I'm gonna be blogging my arse off over this challenge, getting to the root of my problems.
I'm declaring my independence from the way of life I had.
I'm declaring Independence from family pressures.
I'm declaring independence from "it's in your genes".
I'm declaring independence from the submissive personality I developed.
I'm declaring independence from other's expectations....or lack there of.
I DECLARE MY INDEPENDENCE from the fat "me".
There is probably a list here that could go on and on. About the Whys, and The declarations....and I'll be posting them as I come to them. But, for now, all I'm gonna say is:
"Aint nothing going to break my stride
Nobody´s going to slow me down
Oh no, I have got to keep on moving
Aint nothing going to break my stride
I am running I would not touch the ground,
Oh no, I have got to keep on moving"