The important thing is getting back up
Tuesday, June 28, 2011
I've fallen off the wagon, hard. I've gained back weight that I was hoping was gone forever. Not exercising, driving through fast-food, snacking rather than eating... I've done it all over the last month and a half. And I'm paying for it.
It's been a bad couple of months. I was at my Dad's until June 6th. The kids started summer PDO on June 8th. My Dad ended up back in the hospital on June 13th and was there until June 17th. I had a family birthday party at my Dad's on June 18th and my Mother-in-Law coming in on June 19th. My husband went in for surgery on June 21st. He got out of the hospital on June 24th, but went back in (by ambulance) on June 25th. He was there through yesterday. He's still recovering from the surgery, so there's a lot of things on my shoulders.
I'm not really expecting life to get any easier in the near future. My husband is going to be out of work for probably 3 more weeks. My kids are going to Vacation Bible School at the church where their PDO is from July 10th through July 14th. My nephew is coming to stay for a little more than a week to help me out, so I have to get things ready for him to come. Teddy (my eldest) starts school on August 11th and I have so much to get ready for him with this. It's just what's happening in my life right now.
With all of it, it's been easier to forgo exercise and healthy eating. Easier to just ignore what I should do. It's been easier to rationalize why I'm not working out or eating better. But I've GOT to change that. My whole family needs to change it.
Especially with things going as wonky as they've been, I've got to be in the best condition possible. I have to have a plan and start working that plan again. I need to keep up with my own health so I can keep up with the health of everyone else.
Yesterday, I worked out for the first time in a long, long time. And I could tell. My arms and legs still hurt today. I want... Gods, how I want to be able to say that I'm hurting so I'm taking today off. But I can't do that. I've got to work out again once my kids go up for a nap. Because excuses are too easy right now.
I keep falling off this wagon. I keep letting things distract me from my goal of good health. I'm all about the easy road too much of the time. But I can't be any more. I want to be around to watch my kids graduate, not only from HS but from college as well. I'm 37. It's not the same as 17. I need to remember that. I don't have the metabolism I did then. I don't have the flexibility I did then. Everything is going to take more work. And I need to work at it.
I'm coming back to SparkPeople because it's always been the best place for me. I need somewhere to be accountable, and this is the best place for it. I'm hoping to get my husband back here as well. Once he's healed from the surgery. Because we both need to be around for a long, long time.