Tuesday, June 28, 2011
Hi my name is Carrie and I started my journey back in July 2009 weighing in at 265 pds Within a year i had lost 60 pds on my own. Then in 7/4/2010 i started my SP journey and i think i was about 235-240.Since then I have lost a total of 20-30 pounds working the sparkpeople.com program.
For the last eight month my weight loss has been at 186-188 pds and has slowed down completely. I take full responsibility and will not make excuses for why my weight has not gone anywhere. I know that I have not been at my best when it comes to finding a diet plan and staying active physically and It goes without saying that my SPARKING has not been active either. These are just a few key issues that will make or break a weight loss journey. One needs to be Present and Active in his/her life's journey in order to commit to a healthier life.
I know that I can change the outcome of my journey but have found it to be a struggle with realizing that I am a healthy and fit women that can grab a hold of her dreams and fly with them. On the other hand I am facing a critical moment right now where I can either go backwards in my journey or I can start looking to the future. A part of me wants to listen to my heart and continue onwards to a healthier ME. I know in the end I will feel better about accomplishing my goals.
However, I have my concerns about how society will accept the new me. Will people look or treat me differently now that i am looking healthier and sexier? How will my family and friends feel when they are around me? What about all the new attention I will be getting from the male population. Would I know how to handle these new situations that will be waiting for me? These are all the questions, thoughts and concerns that everyone has to address when they get to where they want to be. I have gotten to the point where i have reached my weight loss goal and now I am hesitant with jumping into new territory and going beyond my expectations.