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A Champion Returns

Sunday, June 26, 2011

Last year I felt I was reaching my stride. With the help of SparkPeople.com, I was able to lose 40 pounds, exercise without tiring, and even ran my first 5k in nearly 20 years. On February 19, 2011, I was to start a new trend. Since then I have set a few new records, but not necessarily ones that I wanted to set. In the last four months I have; died twice, been admitted to the hospital three times, road in the ambulance five times, and have had two shirts cut off me.

Here is the nice thing though, thanks again to SparkPeople, I am pretty healthy. Now you wouldn't think I am healthy by the previous paragraph, but I am by all medical measurement standards. My blood pressure is normal, I have no irregular heartbeats, there are no blockages in my heart, and just about any blood test you can think of has a positive number.

I am blessed, fortunate, and all around lucky. However, I am not what I was at the end of last year. I have gained all of my weight back and am not allowed to exercise until the doctors can pinpoint or prevent what is causing me to go into cardiac arrest. For the most part, I feel fine. Just a few weeks ago, I felt fine, then a little dizzy, and then I was waking up from the ground. Does this scare me? Yes, very much so. I do have an ICD in me now that will shock me back to life, but I would much rather not have to deal with it at all.

Now, for the returning champion part. This morning, after stepping on the scale and seeing the dreadful return of where I was, I am now more determined than other. Now, I can be like Rocky V, Rambo 6, or the most recent Indiana Jones. In other words, I can make a comeback even though I have this working against me. I can make up a bunch of excuses, but when I look around me, I find lots of people fighting past those excuses.

I don't know if I will ever be allowed to run again, but that doesn't mean I can't come up with some other good goals. I'm looking forward to working towards these goals along with all the rest of the good people here on SparkPeople. And I am convinced, more than ever, that we CAN do it!

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    Yay!!! I've really missed reading your blogs Ryan! You inspire so many people.. do you even know how many people care about you? I do hope the doctors find out what's wrong with you because we want you around for a long time!!

    You're not only a champion, you're also a rock star!! I like your no quit attitude and you are a true inspiration.. on the days that I feel like quitting.. I will think of you and push through it!
    2520 days ago
    You've got such a great positive attitude! It will keep you going so much better than one that isn't. You can do this! there are so many of us rooting for you! One day at a time.
    *hugs* you'll get passed this!
    2521 days ago
    Also saying lots of prayers for you and the family

    2522 days ago
    I agree you are a Champion in my book....I also wish you all the best and hope that the doctors can very soon figure it out God bless you Ryan....

    2522 days ago
    VERY inspiring and VERY true. You have the mentality of a champion because you are a champion. emoticon
    2522 days ago

    Comment edited on: 6/26/2011 6:57:12 PM
    Ryan sending you lots of prayers and prayers that doctors figure out why your heart is doing that.. You are an inspiration!!!
    2522 days ago
    One of the best blogs I've read Ryan. You can do it!
    2522 days ago
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