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Stress and NOT falling off the wagon!

Saturday, June 25, 2011

Stress and not falling off the wagon!

To say that my life and that of my husband have been stressful over the last couple of months would be an understatement. The life changing events are for another blog; how I've reacted to the stress has been nothing short of amazing to me. I still cry.....a lot. I'm still angry and hurt but am trying my best to work out those feelings.

In the past. my way of dealing with stress was to eat anything and everything made of simple carbs. A whole recipe of pancakes or waffles, with a cube of butter and a cup of syrup, doughnuts, toast, butter and jam. You get the picture. I would eat my way into a food coma, then sit on my ever widening butt watching TV all day. My stomach was constantly upset and I spent any time not in front of the television on the toilet. I didn't sleep well and headaches were common.

So far, other than bouncing up and down by a couple of pounds my weight has stayed the same. I have flirted with binges a couple of times but have managed to avoid a full fledged binge. I continue to exercise on a regular basis and have added many more steps and miles to my days. When stress threatens to overwhelm me I take a walk, run or hike. I run on my mini trampoline. I go to the YMCA. I take a step and Pilates class. I strength train.....anything to keep me moving. Never in a million years did I think I would turn to exercise instead of food. Exercise calms me, helps me to stay more centered, make my brain & body feel better.

It is still a struggle not to eat an entire bag of M & Ms or a carton of ice cream if they are around. It's even hard to get all of my steps & exercise on some days. But, the feeling I get as I drift off to sleep after an active day when I've eaten well is priceless. My former fat girl self is still in the shadows, often begging to come back. I'll keep her at bay by practicing my new passion......exercise in any form!

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    Terry, I know this response is quite late, but I am SO glad I read this today!! I needed this encouragement, this reminder. I have had those "stress" days and it isn't always possible to share online all that makes life difficult, but know that I understand because I have been there too. AND I am going to remember to resist the urge to overeat tonight and push hard on the long run tomorrow in honor of those of us who are getting a handle on our life while life hits hard back!

    Blessings dear SP friend!
    2540 days ago
  • NOREGRET2010
    I don't know how I missed this post!

    terry, you inspire me so much! Stress is a killer - literally. You are changing your reaction to stress and lengthening your life. I'm so proud to know you!

    And you are correct - I think we would definitely be good friends if we lived close...but I take your virtual friendship very seriously...if you ever need a vent, please email me, really!!! saharasdream "at" gmail "dot" com. HUGS friend, you are DOING IT!!
    2543 days ago
    That is so awesome Terry. I think you are outstanding. I still totally struggling with not wanting to deal with my stress in sugary and greasy ways, but working out has definitely helped, and the support of such positive people, like you. Keep up the good work!
    2547 days ago
    Goood Job Terry!!!

    I am glad you are finding new, healthy habits... :)

    2551 days ago
  • MIKA016
    Terry, you are an inspiration! I hope to be in the place you are one day. It's taken you a lot of hard work to get there. I'm sorry to hear bout your husband and you still being under stress. I will continue to keep you in my prayers. Keep on staying strong you are so doing it! I'm proud to be your friend!

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    2552 days ago

    Comment edited on: 6/26/2011 11:05:37 AM
    You are great Terry! Your blog is wonderful...real...I love it. I am so inspired when I read about how you have turned to exercise instead of food for comfort and rejuvenation. The exercise strengthens and builds you up...you can see it in the way that you write. It seems to me that you have learned so much on this journey. Isn't it interesting how there is that part of us that still wants to slide back or ignore what we have learned? Fortunately your thin rockin self is now waaaay stronger than the chubby one over in the shadows! Yes, we all occasionally slip or overindulge but you have figured out that a slip or a flirtation with the old like does not undo all your hard work if you don't let it. We are all human after all!

    I am sorry for your stress and all that you have been through. I would love to be there and take a run with you and let you jut download your problems with me. Chatting with friends can be quite helpful too! Life is crazy isn't it? It's the only one we got though and you are truly making yours better with your habits and going on head held high. I am proud of you. Truly.

    Thank you for this inspirational blog lady! You are great! emoticon
    2553 days ago
    I am so sorry to hear about your stress. I hope it is decreasing now? I am so glad you use exercise to combat stress. I have NOT reached that place, yet. I don't know why. But I am inspired now to get some exercise tonight! You are emoticon and you write very well. emoticon
    2553 days ago
  • ROCKMAN6797
    What an inspirational blog Terry! I am so pleased to read that you have changed your life and are now equipped to respond to life's ups and downs in a more sensible fashion. Everyday I think about what my life was like before I started this journey and wonder what took me so long to "get it." You "got it!" Keep up the awesome work my friend, you are truly a motivational force!

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    2553 days ago
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