Friday, June 24, 2011
It has been a really long time. I was up 10 pounds from my average lowest weight (130). My clothes were starting to feel snug. To be honest, some of my clothes did not even fit anymore. I have been wearing my old "fat" clothes. It took me a while to get so mad at myself and fall into a sort of depression. I kind of just go through the work day and come home and read or busy myself with nothing of importance.
What was I doing? How can I live like this? No excitement or enthusiasm for life! Finally, this week I made myself get back on track. I'm almost thankful for the depression. For letting me get so sad that I could no longer live as I was. I'm already down almost three pounds from weeks ago when I weighed in in the 140s. Score! Now I'm motivated!
Working out was seeming like such a chore but I'm slowly regaining that feeling of being strong and confident.
I'm hoping that after this initial week, which seems to be the toughest, I am more committed and really on the right track to living the life I want.