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Thursday, June 23, 2011

The time is drawing near. I am about to make a big change. I am taking my 15 year old son from the small town of Sneads Ferry, NC, right on the coast to Sharpsburg, GA a small town just outside of Atlanta. We will be going from living in our house to sharing a home with my awesome sister, Sherry, her wonderful boyfriend, Johnny, and Sherry's 10 year old daughter, Taylor. I feel very grateful and blessed to have a sister who would welcome 2 extra people into her home for "as long as we like or need". I don't want to be a burden and I have to take her word for it that we are not. I definitely have issues with "receiving". I know it comes from a place I am trying to dig out of me that says I am not worthy. That is why I have chosen men who do not treat me as I deserve to be treated. I don't feel worthy of love and care. My child is paying the price for that and it doesn't feel good. He deserves so much more too. I don't want him to feel what I have always felt so I have to set an example starting now. We are both worthy of love and respect and happiness. We are. I am.

Thank you to all my Spark Friends who continue to send me goodies and post comments and PM me just checking in even though I haven't posted a blog since FEBRUARY. I log in every day, read a lot of blogs, comment on some of them and draw support just by knowing you are all in the background cheering for me, sending me strength. It means so much.

I am housesittng for a friend this weekend and it will be nice to be in her very nice home on the water with beautiful backyard plus dock. I will be taking care of her 2 large sweet dogs and 2 cats so it should be fun. Noah will be home from camp on Saturday and he will hopefully join me or stay home with his dad if his dad can manage to stay sober and if not, I will be 5 minutes away. We are leaving on Thursday, June 29. I feel happy and sad, but mostly I hope there is some peace in sight. emoticon
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  • no profile photo CD8667808
    Rhonda, it sounds like you're doing great things for yourself that will only improve the quality of yours and Noah's life. You absolutely one million percent deserve it!
    Enjoy that beautiful house with sweet animals!
    3155 days ago
  • TWINKIE14
    I am happy for you Rhonda, you and your son deserve to be happy, you have made a hard decision, but it is going to be for the best, good luck on your new adventure, think positive, everything will work out OK. emoticon

    Be happy. emoticon emoticon Margaret
    3157 days ago
  • JUSTJUSTY
    It's gonna be okay! You are doing the right thing! Hang in there. Congratulations on making this important decision. emoticon
    3161 days ago
  • PAMATX
    House-sitting on the water with the pups and the kitties. What a wonderful way to sit and contemplate all the wonderful things ahead of you. Just getting into a healthy supportive environment will do wonders. The rest will flow from there. It's like you're escaping from a cult. It's terrific that you have your sister there to support you during the transition. And Noah will have a friend, too.

    I'm so happy for you, Rhonda. It takes a strong woman to walk away and start again. Clearly you have what it takes to build the life of your dreams.

    Pam
    xxooxx

    3163 days ago
  • TEENY_BIKINI
    You go girl. Enjoy your new beginning. You deserve it!

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    3164 days ago
  • NCPANFAN
    I wish you happiness and peace and blessings in your new life. I know how hard it can be and I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers. Take care and have a safe move!!
    3164 days ago
  • TWEETYKC00
    Rhonda, not only are you loved, but you deserve all the love you have and so much more in your life. it's such a relief that you have family that is willing and able to help you when you need it so that you and Noah can be safe and taken care of to help you get on your feet. you can conquer anything and will get through everything in good time.
    3165 days ago
  • no profile photo HOTPINKCAMARO49
    emoticon It is time for you to start LOVING &taking CARE of YOU! YOU are important & you are a Child of GOD. HE loves YOU.

    Today is the 1st day of the rest of YOUR LIFE!

    Hugs. emoticon
    3165 days ago
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