What is my flippin' problem?!

Tuesday, June 21, 2011

Seriously self. What is going on?

This weekend. I ate. And I ate. And I ate some more. Chicken strips, fries, sno cones, frozen yogurt, pizza, cheese, ice cream sandwiches, beer, wine, chocolate, chips, cashews, barbeque, bagels, mimosas, full fat cream cheese. I fell off the wagon and landed into a pile of junk calories.

It was bad. I felt mildly ill the whole binge but it didn’t stop me. I didn’t want to see the scale but I forced myself to step on it Monday morning. Bam. 5lbs added to my butt. Granted, some of it was water weight because this morning 2 of those lbs were gone. Still, it was ugly and now I am not going to meet my goal of being able to say I lost 40lbs by my cousin’s wedding this Saturday.

It’s not like I had been doing all that great before this weekend though. My last blog even discussed how I’ve been eating more and more without tracking.

So, instead of boo-freaking-hooing over my weight gain and the fact that I simply dislike having to track every last bite, I’m going to challenge myself. Following RUNTRILAUGH’s lead, I am going track EVERYTHING for 10 days. No cheats. No free weekends. I’m not going to ignore the high point meals foods I’ve been eating. If I eat it, I track it. Even if I don’t like what it tells me.

Making this challenge even more difficult is the fact I’m leaving on Thursday for a 5 day trip to Minnesota. I haven’t been back since I graduated college some hundred million years ago and all I want to do is eat at all my favorite old restaurants. Plus, Saturday is a family wedding which means open bar. Ugh. But, I have my trusty Weight Watchers app on my iPhone, so I have no excuse not to track. I need to get back into the habit of tracking my food. If I can keep it going long enough, eventually I will get used to it and not despise the process as much.

Tracking = mindful eating = better choices = weight loss.

Today I am wearing a dress that hasn’t fit in 2 years. It looks great, if not a little big. It felt great to zip it up. Still, it’s a size 14. If fitting into a 14 feels good, I need to imagine how it will feel when I can replace it with a size 12. Or 10. I won’t ever experience that if I don’t get my eating under control.

Can someone cheer me on? I need some extra support these days.
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    we're gonna have setback days--and now you know that eating junk physically makes you feel ill! that's a sign that something's changed! :) and you picked yourself back up, challenged yourself to track, and you're going to do it. And it's gonna be good. Props to you for owning up to it on SP too!

    and CONGRATS on the dress!!! That's seriously exciting and must feel amazing :) Just wait--soon that dress will be so big you won't be able to wear it anymore :)
    3135 days ago
  • CORKY1303
    You can definitely do it girl!
    And WHEN you get through this trip, the rest will be downhill from there!!

    3138 days ago
    You can do it! Remember, Minnesota is actually getting more fit - there's always a million of us out running! I'll be in Plymouth plugging away at a 5K myself!
    3138 days ago
    You can do it!!!! emoticon

    Have fun too!
    3139 days ago
  • BRIAN36
    Re-read your own blog from the 14th. Which do you think feels better, slipping into a smaller dress, zipping it right up and looking HAWT! or munching on greasy fries?
    3139 days ago
    I will be here to cheer you on! You can certainly do this! I sometimes just get in a "mood" where I just don't want to track.... And I will go a few days without doing it... and I almost ALWAYS binge when I am not tracking every bite. So I totally "get" what you are saying!

    You can do this!
    Way to go! And have FUN this weekend!
    3139 days ago
    You can do it girl! Dig deeper, you are not "there" yet! Keep going!
    3139 days ago
  • JESSIKA_56
    You can do it! Stick to it and your hard work will pay off!
    3139 days ago
    You are amazing! You fall down but look how quickly you are picking yourself back up again! We ALL have binge times like that, the key is to not beat ourselves up over it and get back on track asap, which you are doing. I llve your plan to track everythjng, expecially through your trip. You are recovering from the binge tremendously well, so remember to give yourself credit for that.

    You got this! :)
    3139 days ago
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    It must be the heat because I've been doing the same thing! LOL

    Seriously, getting into that dress is AWESOME!!!! You can rock this 10 day challenge!
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    3139 days ago
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