Most people set goals of where they hope to be after one year after dedicating themselves to change in their lives. I found myself in desperation June 20, 2010. I was at my heaviest weight of 247 and just could not bare hiding behind my kids in pictures anymore. I wanted to enjoy playing with my kids and not getting tired just from doing something fun.
My goal one year later was to be at a "healthy" or what doctors call a "normal" Body Mass Index. For me to be at the appropriate BMI in my mind, was to be at 145 lbs. How the heck would this be possible?
In life I have been on many a diets and lost weight, but at one time it was only 25 lbs. That was a lot of weight at the time those 25 lbs fell off. I only saw the weight come back and even more weight with it in past stages in my life.
With Spark People I realized that I could manage things. I lost the 25lbs and then more this time around in my life on this journey. At six months, later right before Christmas, I lost 55 lbs total, which did not seem possible to me. This brought my current weight at the time to 197, which was finally below 200 lbs which I had not be at since probably pre-marriage time. It felt great to fit into so many clothes that had been hiding away in my dressers and closets. I started gaining positive affirmation about my outer image and then even gained a strong sense of self that I could actually achieve something that once seemed so out of reach when I initially started.
I found myself attending my 20th high school reunion on my 38th birthday this year. It was awesome my classmates saying, "Wow! You look wonderful!" I had always been the overweight gal in school with the big stalking frame...so, for everyone to say I looked great was incredible to say the least!
I have been at the 197 pound mark forever, since December to be exact. The past week, I have even gained five extra pounds, whether water or just more weight....I realize it is still all good. I have to realize where I have initially come from. I have fought many things and have still won in the last year, I have battled the ever so many medications needed for depression and anxiety....these meds that often cause problems when you try to lose weight. I have fought the fight against Thyroiditis since November, only finding that it too could cause havoc on weight loss. Don't get me wrong, it is hard on the emotions seeing the numbers on the scale not budging for months and then all of a sudden the number slightly going up.
One must remember it is a day to day journey and a life time of change to get to the end goal. It is important to be active and to workout if nothing else. Try to keep track of food and yes, even the water intake daily. Most importantly, love yourself no matter where you are at in the journey and give yourself one huge pat on your back for at least taking the walk as I have this past year.
Today, will mark the start to my second half of my journey...I still am aiming at that normal BMI. I would like to lose another 50lbs by Christmas 2011, or even by June 2012. Cheers to everyone on the Spark journey!!!