I cried because I'm fat!
Sunday, June 19, 2011
I can't remember if I've ever done it. I know I've been down about my weight, think constantly about my weight, but today I all out cried about it. I can't even blame my hormones about it. I am 50lbs over weight, and it just seems hopeless to lose ANY of it. My 5'1" frame must be carrying 185lbs. The months of working out and eating sensibly just to lose any weight are enough to make me lose hope.
I start Zumba tomorrow after not going for 3 weeks. But I go in thinking "Why? It's not going to help. I just keep going and it just keeps not working." Not even the shape magazines that used to hold a glimmer of hope for me no longer seem to have sliver of treasure in them to hold on to. All the girls look amazing! I looked amazing when I was 25 too.
I'm just not finding any inspiration right now....maybe because I haven't been in 3 weeks?