Take time, slow down
Sunday, June 19, 2011
I don't know at what point in my life I learned this, but I eat quickly. Like really quickly. I can be done a standard spaghetti dinner including seconds in less than ten minutes. It's like I'm worried about not getting enough food, that I won't get my share. I've eaten like this for a long time, citing that I don't like cold food, but is there more to it than that? I always seem to be in a food rush, I'll take a long time prepping a meal and then devour it quickly. Why would I wait between bites when I can shovel in another fork full while I'm still swallowing my last? Slightly disturbing, I know.
Because I've reflected on this slightly disturbing fact and also find it slightly disgusting, I've given myself a new challenge. Eat only at the table, set my fork down in between each bite, and don't pick it up again until all my food in my mouth has been swallowed. Then I can pick up my fork and take another bite. It took me close to half an hour to eat my taco salad and a pear for lunch. Multiple times I found myself picking up my fork and scooping up the next bite before I'd swallowed completely. I then set down my fork, ensured I had swallowed completely, and picked it up again.
By the time I was done my meal, it was cold. But the funny thing was, I didn't mind. So apparently that argument is out the window.
I'm also taking the no-binge challenge in one of my Spark Groups and it's definitely a challenge! Just because I hit my weight loss goal, it doesn't mean I'm done my journey towards a healthier lifestyle. Binging has been a struggle for me for years, and now that I'm at a healthy weight, I'm taking the next step to conquor the binge. It's been 10 days since I've eaten myself to the point of feeling sick. That's a victory. Normally I expect two of my weekend nights to end in binges, with at least Saturday being a write-off. It's 10pm on my second Saturday on the challenge and there is no binge in sight. By the point, if I want something else, I think I'll just curl up and go to sleep.
One day at a time right? I'll worry about making it through tomorrow when it gets here.