It's Been a While
Saturday, June 18, 2011
Alright... so its June 18th. I have been back to sparkpeople for over a few weeks now, just haven't gotten around to posting a blog entry. I suppose I can add another tally onto my weight loss attempts for January- March. Normally in the past I would be terribly depressed and wonder "Why have I failed again?" and would feel terrible about about myself, but that isn't going to happen this time. Nope...I have let it go... I tried...and I got too down on myself when I hit a couple of bumps and tumbled right over.
Am I disappointed? Definitely. I was hoping to have hit my final goal by now and to be in maintenance by now, but hey...that's okay... today is another day. So here I am again... have already made some progress. I think by now I have learned what works and what doesn't work. I can't say that I made a mistake and learned from it and that it will never happen again because that is unreal. I have to keep telling myself that no one is perfect. I cannot expect perfection from myself; rather I should be expecting myself to make mistakes but to not fall right over because of them. I have always been a perfectionist, needed to always be the best at everything and always much to competitive ever since I could remember. Worry about weight coming off is not the issue, I know how to eat well and how to exercise... what I need to learn now is mentality of it all to do it and to stay with it. I can do this. I believe in myself. I know I can do anything I set my mind to. I need this, I want, this, and I deserve it! That's all for day.