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Friday, June 17, 2011

I feel like I have too much to say to be able to focus on just one thing, so please be warned - this may make absolutely no sense, as least not as a complete article. If taken in pieces everything will be as it should.

So, I hit my first plateau and I'm only 7 lbs in. And before anyone says "get out the measuring tape!" I already did, and it's there too...two weeks and nothing except for the same 1.5lbs coming and going and coming and going. Over and Over again. I am still hopeful that it is hormonal...but if every two weeks I'm going to not be able to lose weight I may just end up falling off the wagon, and into a vat of chocolate and cheese and rinse off in a nice Cab Sav. *sigh*

I'm really trying to not focus on the weight, the numbers, the "expectation" that I have. Most of the time I can do it. Most of the time I can remember that I am training my body, not just trying to leave some of it behind (and mostly from my behind...). I've pretty much stuck within my calorie limits - the only days that I have gone over have been days where I am burning more than 600 calories that day. Most days I am getting in my cardio (today was a bust! unless you count walking around home depot and the grocery store...oh and in stalling a ceiling fan). I am still going strong with C25K (W3D2 tomorrow!). And sometimes I can feel good about those "accomplishments" other days, not so much.

Really what that comes down to is the fact that I have nothing to occupy my mind other than what is going on in my home and what is happening with my weight. I seriously need a job. Like BAD. And not just because my savings is dwindling away to nothingness. I need to get out of my house - think about someone else's problem for a while. And while I used to think that I was "hire-able" I feel like I have been lumped into the "over qualified" group of people. I am 28 years old and have worked since my sophomore year in highschool - that is up until I left my job of 7.5 years to go back to school. And now that I want a low level job doing anything, I can't get it. What the duck?! grrrrr, it is so frustrating I don't even know where to begin with explaining it. I feel like a failure plain and simple.

Anyways, enough about that. There is so much more that I would like to say, just have the words to say them, so I wont even try. I have to save that effort for keeping my hands out of the pantry and the fridge.
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    You are singin' my tune! I'm right there with you on the "trying not the let the numbers affect me but they are" and "I went back to school but now am jobless and I need to get out of the house" bus. It's a bumpy right, isn't it? But it's times like these where it's VITAL to stay positive! You deserve nothing but the best, and that includes a good attitude :) Just know you're not alone.

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    3089 days ago
    I'm in the exact same boat as far as a job is concerned, and I know how frustrating it is! I've been volunteering, so that I can at least get out of my tiny little studio apartment and interact with others. Maybe you could do that until you find a job. Hang in there! We'll both get through this!
    3092 days ago
    I'm in the same situation. I quit my job at a retail store when I was a junior in high school and now that I'm almost a junior in college, I can't find a job! I've had 2 interviews so far, and no one else will either be hiring or calling back for an interview! Oh well their loss!

    Like JenJen1004 said, keep blogging and being open! Good luck with your weight loss! You can do it!!!!!!!!
    3093 days ago
    emoticon Just keep focused. I know it's annoying when people say not to pay attention to the scale, but now is the best time to keep that in mind. Stressing about it may actually cause you to hold on weight more, so just relax and know that it will happen.
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  • JENJEN1004
    I understand about the plateau. I weigh too much to have hit a plateau so soon. But keep blogging and being open. I hope you find a job soon.
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