Ever have one of those times?
Thursday, June 16, 2011
Ever have one of those times when things could not get any crazier and stressful and then somehow they do? This is what is happening with me right now. I can do stress...I can. What I have a hard time with is crazy stress coming from multiple places and hardly any free time. Sadly what I have been trying to do with my free time is ...well work. I have been trying to menu plan for the fall of all things. At night when everyone goes to bed. It isn't even summer time yet but this year it is important for me to have a full menu idea ready for the fall! I feel like everyday something has pulled me in some direction that I wasn't expecting.
What is going on? I guess this is what the mass exodus from Norway looks like the month before it happens. The country essentially empties out in July and so everyone is trying to cram every possible thing they can in now and I can hardly take it anymore! The barnehage (nursery school) is the worst for this. They have several events planned for the kids for each week of the month often times involving parent participation...or us giving money to them. Tonight is the big sleepover for all the kids leaving barnehage and going to first grade next year. This required us to lug a bunch of bedding, extra clothes and a pillow up the large hill to the barnehage so that Quin could have this fun night. Somehow though they are asking us to pick the children up at 12 noon tomorrow because they will be tired. Um...we send the kids to barnehage because we have to go to work. This is literally the third random thing that they have asked us to leave work early for this month. I guess I am being a curmudgeon about it all but I mean really!
While I am being a curmudgeon I will throw this one in there...all the parents whose kids are having their birthdays over the next two months are also having early birthday parties for their kids ...now I know I sound really mean because kids should have a birthday party when their friends can attend but it is just adding pressure to this month! There was also the neighborhood block party a week ago. When I planned our brunch for last weekend I had no idea how packed this month was going to get. Honest.
Now for work. Bon Jovi has left the building. (That really didn't add to my stress but everyone seemed to think it was OK for me to name drop so I thought I would just throw that in there!...they didn't eat with us but they stayed at the hotel.) So annnnyyyyway...about work...I have really been feeling the loss of my assistant. We have been so busy with special parites...again I think it is that whole trying to get everything in thing. I work at a dizzying pace and still don't get it all done. Patrick has to pick up the slack and I feel kind of bad about that since he is living this hectic life too. I just find myself running out the door everyday blurting out things that I did not have time to do. I hate that. I am organized. I like to work several days ahead so I don't ever have to panic. I am not able to do that now and am only barely making it by the skin of my teeth. It is almost over but right now it is no fun. Next week we close but before that the UN will be eating with us for two days and of course they are requesting special desserts so rather than being able to move out our normal menu and then close, I have to produce two new desserts for the last two days we are open. A royal pain. OOOhhhhhh I AM a curmudgeon!
I really am. I actually yelled at someone today. Not exactly Gordon Ramsey style but more cause she just pissed me off style. (Maybe that IS Gordon Rqamsey style. I don't know.) I even used a certain word that I could get in trouble for...fortunately words like that don't sound so bad to Norwegians if you say them in English. It is not like me to be like that...well it kind of is...but I haven't had cause for it a long time and as I age I now can keep myself in check better. I did apologize to her and I did not feel very good about it all after but I am a person and I have flaws.
Last week my eating was terrible. Not well balance and two days I was off the charts with my calories and the scale did not move. Two days of high calories is not bad considering but still...I have regained control this week and have done much better. I have even planned my meals ahead so I would have the security of not having to think about it. I also been far more mindful at work about what I am putting in my mouth. I just keep refocusing whenever I get off track although the temptation is there.
One of the things that makes this all so stressful is that I live in a country where I do not always "get it". Social situations are sometimes hard and I want to retreat and this month has been chock full of social situations with no place to retreat to. I don't always know what to do or say and I get tired of feeling that way. If you can believe it a lot of people don't even find me funny here! :D The best I can do is just keep on trying...showing up...stumbling through. I have managed to find small group of ...friend type people..mostly with spouses who are not Norwegian who do get me and I am trying to cultivate those friendships where I can feel that it is not so tedious. Some of them even get my sense of humor!
SO I will make it. I just needed to rant a bit I think and tell you why I have been so absent and probably will be for a little while longer. Oh ...wait...I have just received a phone call from Patrick! Holy cow does HE sound stressed! Apparently the paper is there. Eating. The restaurant is completely packed and the people from one of the papers are having a seven course and asking a lot of questions. We have not been reviewed yet in any of the Oslo papers since Patrick took over. How nerve wracking!
Ever have one of those times when things could not get any crazier or stressful and yet somehow then they do?