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Here is something that is worse than being laid off

Tuesday, June 14, 2011

After working in a comfy desk job for a year, feeling financially stable for literally the first time in my life, and finally enjoying eating out at restaurants without stressing out about the bill, I gained weight. About 25 pounds to be exact.

I wasn't pigging out all of the time though. I ate healthy breakfasts and lunches, only occasionally going out to lunch once a week. But without working out and dining out for dinner on a regular basis, the weight crept up.

I was also in a casual work environment. Sundresses, shorts, jeans, and skirts were my "work attire". I was also allowed to dye my hair, and in the course of 7 months I dyed it green, teal, turquoise, and blue.

So imagine my surprise when I was laid off and had to root through my closet to find decent interview clothes. I had no idea that all of my business and business casual attire was too small! (Of course, I also had to dye my hair black to cover up the blue and look "normal".)

Yesterday, I went shopping for interview clothes, as I can't wear tight pants to an interview. After failing to find something at T.J. Maxx (the section for size 16 and XL clothes is practically non-existent), I trekked over to Old Navy, or Old Faithful as I should call them as I am usually able to find pants that fit there. I was shocked and dismayed to find that the 16s were too small! I tried on some 18s, a size I haven't worn in a good 5 years, and they were still baggy in areas, but at least they didn't look scandalous like the size 16s.

So what's worse than being laid off? Being laid off and being forced to buy a size larger in pants. A size I told myself I would never be again. One size that shows that I have made a significant step backward in progress.

I haven't bought clothes in almost a year, and I wasn't planning on it until I lost more weight. I am finally losing weight, and I am finally in a determined state of mind to which I do not believe I will fail this time. But now I have size 18 pants again, after I had given all my others away years ago. I will have to use them as a reminder to myself at what can happen when you lose focus of your goals...
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  • LOSEB432
    I know the feeling! As others have said, it's only temporary and you will get back to how you were! Every day as you do the program, you're getting smaller.
    3704 days ago
  • no profile photo CD8180433
    Good for you for finding something that fits at Old Navy. I was depressed recently to find that their largest belts were too small for me. I'm down to a 14 or a 16 finally and i still have trouble shopping there.

    Good luck with the job search!
    3704 days ago
  • LOPEYP
    Hang in there! I've been laid off a few times in my life and every time I got a better job. Since everything happens for a reason maybe this is your healthy wakeup call.
    3705 days ago
  • RACH_LVSLIFE
    I like how you have chosen to put a positive spin on the situation.

    Best of luck with your job search!
    3705 days ago
  • BERRY4
    Sorry to hear you are having to seek employment. Good luck in that endeavor. This healthy focused lifestyle is such a process. It IS easy to get sidetracked by most anything and not realize it.

    May you take the daily steps you need to move back in the direction you want to be. You CAN do it. Don't give up!
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    3705 days ago
  • KREUTZEL
    Well, I've been in that situation of realizing Oh My God, I have to buy size 18? And I know how depressing it was. But you are AWARE of it. You know that it's not just a passing thing. So many people will not take their weight to heart until they pass 18, 20, 22, 24... but you stopped at 18 and thought to write about it. Sharing the news makes you accountable, and you'll turn it around most certainly. emoticon
    3705 days ago
  • TINKERSMOMMA
    The good news is you were not up 2 pant sizes!

    You can do this! Keep focused and before you know it the 18's will be too big once again.
    3705 days ago
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