My weekend was fabulous overall. I say overall because there was some "drama" that had to be worked out with a group of friends that I grew up with. Let's just say it involved facebook flirting, text messaging, and people deleting and blocking one another. An no, these weren't teenagers. These are 30 and 40 somethings. I personally was not part of the drama. I was asked to "take a side" and I politely said "no thank you" and proceeded to stay OFF Facebook this weekend. I don't have time for any drama. Not in my life, and ESPECIALLY not something someone else tries to create for me.
Anyway, if you have read any of my blogs, you will see that last Tuesday's weigh in was a DISASTER. I posted a 3.2 pound GAIN. I follow WW Points Plus, so I decided not to use any of the activity points or the allowance points this week. I must say that I did quite well this week. I DID use 5 points yesterday, but that is pretty good for ALL week. I was quite hungry after.......... restarting my first love....running.
At 188 pounds, it isn't easy for me, but I walked/jogged for 5 miles along the beach where I live yesterday. It was hard, my chest burned, my legs ached, but it also felt wonderful. The sun on my face, the wind gently blowing, the sound of sea gulls and the waves. Good music on the ipod. That euphoria. I felt like I could just grow wings and FLY. Ahh.
I got home after my workout and drank a ton of water, then gave myself a homemade facial. I ground up 2 tbsp of oatmeal in my food processor, mixed in a tbsp of warm honey and a tbsp of yogurt, mixed it all together, then put it on my face. It felt so cool and wonderful. The honey makes the mask kind of harden, so after about 20 minutes, I took a nice, warm shower. The simple things feel so wonderful when you just take a moment to appreciate them.
I cooked dinner for the family, then I drew and colored with my 7 year old while helping my 15 year old pick out which nail polish to use. A calm day
My weekend ended up being a much needed break from WEEKS of chaos. School is finally out for my kids for summer, and for me that is actually a GOOD thing. I don't have to rush kids out the door, so my mornings are MUCH calmer in the summer.
As for my weigh in tomorrow, this is the first time in....oh I don't know.....FOREVER....that I really don't care. I can HONESTLY say that I did my BEST to eat right, count and track my points, and exercise every day. Some days were harder workout days than others, but my average daily burn was about 2900 calories. Not a day was under 2600, and some days were over 3200. I moved in some way everyday. So no matter the number on the scale, it doesn't change that I am integrating the thought that it is the LIFESTYLE, not some quick fix.
I think it is FINALLY clicking for me. I need to not focus on the scale and focus on making the life changes until they feel more natural. The scale WILL eventually follow, but I am starting to get that the scale is a symptom of my LIFE. Can you say epiphany?