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Beginning a New Challenge as a Sapphire Beauty

Wednesday, June 08, 2011

Today is the initial weigh in for the Biggest Loser Summer Slim Down challenge. I am on the Sapphire Beauties team with my friend Georgia, and I think it will be a lot of fun!

Our prechallenge was to write a letter to our future self with what we hope to accomplish during this challenge.

I have been thinking about this all week, but wasn't sure what to write. It came to me when I went to post my initial weigh in. I have done several of these kinds of challenges since last fall. However, I have yet to lose any weight. I bounce up and down, but with no real progress. Now I have made lots of progress in the exercise area. I am doing pretty good with that, making time for movement every day. But the eating is definitely way out of control.

Posting my weigh in made me think about my goals for this challenge. I decided that in 10 weeks I would really like to be down to 210, which would mean a loss of 15.8 pounds. Can I do that? Can I really lose about 1.5 pounds a week? And that strikes such a nerve within me, because in order to do that I have to pay attention to what I eat. No, that is not quite true because I pay plenty of attention to food. I have to control what I eat.

There - that is what touches on that nerve, that is what touches such a deep, dark painful place in me. Because I do pay attention to food and what I eat. I eat what I love, what comforts me, what feels sensual to me. Yesterday I was talking to my co-worker, and she was describing some ice cream she had eaten but couldn't remember what kind it was. Well, I knew instantly what it was. I knew she ate Bluebell Mocha Almond Fudge ice cream. And part of me is so embarrassed that I obsess so much over ice cream that I could name it for her.

So this is the change I want to see in myself over the next 10 weeks. I want to take control of what I eat. I will track my food and stick to healthy choices as best as I can, and I won't beat myself up if I make some choices that are not necessarily so healthy. I will exercise portion control. I will make a real attempt to improve the way I eat.

And my real goal, not just a lip-service, write-something-down but-don't-really-believe-it goal, is to lose 15 pounds over the next 10 weeks.
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  • 4CYNDI
    Good luck on the challenge and finding a way to be in control of your eating.
    2562 days ago
  • TERRIJ_1
    2564 days ago
    try to keep a week or two a food journal to identify your issues. what are your issues , you eat things loaded with calories , good things but too much , at bad hours , and don't tell me something general like all of these. you need a plan. to make a good plan to fix a problem you have to know exactly what to fix. identify those comfort foods and choose the less calorie loaded things. I also love ice cream but when I want it I'm making it myself , without sugar . if I want chicken wings I make them on the grill , not fried, if I want french fries , I make them in the oven , no oil. you can compromise for everything. even can afford eating the "real thing"if you limit yourself at once a have to find a way to make your life as normal as possible while loosing weight. what I love the most in these challenges aren't the let's exercise the most and lose the most weight faster attitude( sorry , not fond and familiar with cheer leading ) but interacting with people that struggle to do the same thing as you do and not feeling the only person on the planet convicted to mindful living.
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    2569 days ago
  • _KATHY
    I know you can do this. You are in good company !
    2570 days ago
    Glad you posted this, I am on the Mahogany team and have to finish this today as well!
    2571 days ago
    Your goals are great and I believe you will control what you eat.
    Here's to your Sapphire Beauties success!
    2571 days ago
    Hon so many of us do this...I eat for comfort and reward!
    It's difficult to change our reactions...but it is something we can work on, day by day.
    I am with you all the way! I will check in on the accountability thread each week and address how things went. Hang in there with us! Anything is possible.
    2571 days ago
    I'm glad you have joined us on the Sapphire Team! We can do this together. emoticon
    2571 days ago
    Lisa, wow, you really did reach deep down inside you for this one, didn't you? I am blown away by your honesty and courage in laying everything out on the table. The resolve and determination to take back control of your eating is just radiating out from this page and I am absolutely certain that you will accomplish what you set out to do.

    You are an amazing woman, and I am so proud to call you Friend.

    You rock, Lisa!
    2571 days ago
    Sounds like we have the same issue with food! I haven't been posting real, lasting losses, because I haven't been controlling that eating monster the way I should. It is difficult, but doable, to control the beast and see real progress. Stay strong, and you can do it!
    2571 days ago
    I think we all go through portion distortion of some sort. It's annoying but I have to get out the measuring cups and scale at most meals. I never deny myself anything because then i crave it. I try for half the serving size on the box. It's enough to put off the craving but not blow my calorie budget. good Luck with your challenge!
    2571 days ago
    Do good!!!!
    2571 days ago
    Good luck to you in your challenge!
    2571 days ago
    I'm having the same problem. I lost 12 lbs last summer & fall but gained 20 back over the winter. For me, exercise is a key factor. When I examine why I gained I realize I stopped exercising (due to injury or time constraints) and then needed to eat more to relax. Double whammy! We all have to examine how & why we eat. Good luck with the new challenge.
    2571 days ago
  • VTSKIER805
    Good luck!! I'm on the Jade Dragons team. I wrote a letter to myself reminding myself what happened last year after I lost the weight and then gained it all back. Now as I near my goal, I will have the chance to reflect on that and I'll know what changes to make this time around. I hope that you have success with your food relationship! I think it's great that you eat what you love because so many people who are trying to lose weight eat foods that they don't enjoy and then the habits don't stick. Let's see what we can accomplish in 10 weeks!!
    2571 days ago
    Good luck with your challenge!
    2571 days ago
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