My Thoughts.... SP is Reading My Mind.......
Saturday, June 04, 2011
Conscience is the inner voice that warns us that someone might be looking.
- HL Mencken, author, critic and newspaperman
What does your conscience tell you?
Ever get the feeling that you should be doing something other than what you are? Not just in the area of good vs. evil, but in your exercise and nutrition choices. Do you ever feel guilty about doing a half-hearted job on a project or neglecting your duty to family? Listen to your conscience. It's telling you that you're getting off track. It knows what you're capable of and where your priorities are. If you neglect those standards--if you get your priorities mixed up--your conscience is going to let you know about it. When you work, turn out a product that would make you proud--even if you think nobody notices. When you plan your day, make sure it agrees with the healthy direction you want to head. That'll keep that nagging inner voice from reminding you that "something is not quite right here." You may think no one is looking, but somebody is--you are.
I opened this Healthy Reflection this morning and could not believe SP is reading my mind. I have been having these issues for the past couple of weeks. I have been battling Diabetic Neuropathy in my feet for about 2 weeks or so. Some days barely able to walk. When this happens my socks hurt my feet. So I have been coming home from work and doing nothing but sitting and keeping my feet up. And what comes with that for an emotional eater????? Eating of course. Since all I was doing was sitting and feeling sorry for myself I would eat or shall I say binge.... and then my conscience hits me, watching me, telling me I should not have done that. But the emotional eater in me doesn't listen to my conscience, it is a never ending battle. I eat and then my conscience kicks in. Why can't it be the other way around. Why can't my conscience overpower the emotional eater before it is too late?????
I have several medical conditions and could easily collect Social Security Disability. I am a 20 year Diabetic, I have High Blood Pressure, the left side of my heart is enlarged, I have Asthma, Arthritis in my back, hips, knees, thumbs and ankles, I have Diabetic Neuropathy in my legs and feet, pedal edema and High Cholesterol and battle IBS to name just some of them. I chose not to sit at home and die. I work one 40 hour job, Mon-Fri, 6:30am to 3pm and then a second job that is at my own pace at home. But I have to do it all the time as it is medical billing for a Dr and that is his life line. So even though it is at my own pace it is done at least a few days a week. Don't get me wrong, I am not complaining and do not want anyone to feel sorry for me. I just wonder how is it I can make myself get over all these conditions to get out of bed everyday and go to work, but I cannot get over the emotional eater or get myself back on track with exercising.