Here I go! This week is about the tools I need for a healthier lifestyle. I've tried to lose weight plenty of times over the past four years or so, but I always slip up.
I can limit myself for a little bit, but then I would decide my few days of good behvior was a reason to "pig out," as I call it. While I don't always eat unhealthy foods during these times, I eat too much of all foods. I am determined this time to live healthier, not just tame my habits temporarily. I want to develop new habits, better habits, skinny people habits! (I don't care to be skinny, just a healthy weight and fitness level. That's just how I think of it.)
Of course, I also have recently discovered that I have an eating disorder, only now being recognized. Compulsive overeating, it has been a long-time habit since I was about 12. I was active enough when I was younger that I didn't really gain much. That's changed, though. I gained over eighty pounds in the past three years! I hate it! None of my clothes fit, I can't bend over and tie my shoes and breath at the same time! Grr! I got frustrated, quit using SparkPeople, and just let go of my weight-loss dreams.
I was doing well at work when we started our biggest loser contest. Except, every time I lost a few pounds, I'd slip right back into the old habits. Well, no more! I lost my job in September last year, and I have gained thirty-some pounds since! Whoa! Holy cow, literally that's what I feel like, a heffer.
Something's got to give. I turn twenty-seven in a month, and I wish I wasn't so fat! I feel very good that I'm actually taking steps to improve this, and have been for two weeks now. I have tossed out my expectations of quick weight-loss, since I know I need to lose one hundred twenty-six pounds. I'm ready, commited, and determined to do this, the right way! I can, I will, I must!