Friday, June 03, 2011

Why is there always a "but"? Even in my own mind??? This morning I got on the scale for my weigh in (after re-sparking on Monday) and I lost 1.5 four days! I should be happy with that, and I was, until I thought of how long it is going to take me to get under 200 pds. And why I am I thinking about the 199 goal now, when my mini goal (very mini) was to see below 220? OMG, the numbers are starting to freak me out!!! How did I allow myself to put all this weight on? I can remember when I was at my lowest...I still wasn't happy with my body, but I was a much more confident person! Now I want to avoid everyone because, in my head, i'm thinking that they are all thinking about my fat!
There is always a "but"....

I'm a nice person BUT I'm fat
I lost 1.5 pds BUT, look how far I have to go
That's a cute shirt BUT, it is for a skinny person

I'm sure there are so many other "But's" that we all could keep listing. Why do I do it to myself? Why can't I simply be happy with getting my food back on track and eating healthy? How do I put on my blinders and keep moving forward? There's always the, BUT, it's so far to go!

*sigh* I'm sure I'll get over the "but" hurdle eventually, I just have to keep picking myself up and dusting off my rear.....hopefully along the way I'll notice it getting smaller. LOL
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    But Angie!.....You are not alone! And....did you gain all that weight overnight? I know I certainly didn't! So why should I expect to lose it all overnight! Try I'm not there yet BUT I've made progress....BUT I'm going in the right direction....But I CAN do this.....etc. It is hard BUT I promise....when I came down to your garage sale I was NOT thinking....Oh MY! Angie has certainly put on weight since school! ;-) I find that we are FAR more self concious about it than other people are focused on it! And I'm right there with you on goals! I want to get below 200 too....but you know what....I have 28 pounds to go and I am only going to get there ONE pound at a time! And EVERY little pound adds up. When you gained weight you probably didn't freak over a ONE pound increase....but they added up! So rejoice over EVERY pound you lose. EVERY step in the right direction and EVERY time someone asks if you lost weight because it means you are making PROGRESS toward a healthier you!
    2513 days ago
    Love the "but" hurdle...I do that too!
    Maybe turn it around. Like...I have a ways to go BUT Im going to enjoy this journey. Or...This seems overwhelming BUT if I focus on 5 pounds at a time it is very within reach!
    Im going to try to turn my buts around ;)
    2513 days ago
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