why is THIS the hard part?!
Friday, June 03, 2011
Okay, so it's 10:52 pm PST right now, and I still have calories to eat...I have a bowl of cereal infront of me coupled with a glass of wine (don't tell, but it is my second of the night...boo I know) because after logging my days meals I still had ~250 calories left...I even logged the piece of cheese that I ate while shopping as Costco. I even ate some chocolate!
This isn't the first time this has happened either. More often then not, I am struggling to meet my food goals. More times then not, it's the carbs - I blame that on not being able to eat gluten and not wanting to bake all the time (it's messy and I don't have a dish washer...and yes I am a self proclaimed lazy bum). I am however eating a TON of fruits and veggies, getting my protein and staying in my fat range. I feel like this shouldn't be so easy, but at the same time it's hard. I don't want to starve my body, at all. I want to feed it what it needs to be a better body. And here is the thing, many of you (if any of you read this) will say "snack during the day" "eat 5 small meals" or something else similar - and should I take this advice - I would end up eating all day and surpassing my limits by miles. I am a snack-er by nature, it is the reason for the size that my body is at this present moment (although it is 5lbs less then it was 4 weeks ago
). I don't snack because I know that if I do, I will continue. I only have so much will power and there are only so many strawberries and cherries that a girl can eat (and afford!) in a day, and even then the calories are so minimal that I would still be under at the end of the day!
Also I feel bad that this is my problem - I don't eat enough, when I know that there are many of you out there struggling to stay under your limits. I feel like this is how my whole life has been: high, low, and NO in between!
Well, it's 11:06pm now...and I still have at least 50 calories to eat....jeez louise I'm gonna eat some cheese!