Tuesday, May 31, 2011
So I've re-written 85% of this blog like 14 times. I want to write interesting words and not seem self-involved but I suppose that's what weight loss is. That's what it has to be to get the most out of the journey. This is the time you decide you are important, you are good, deserving and worthy. It's not selfish to take care of yourself. In fact, in order to be more effective, efficient, heck, just plain there for others you have to be alive. Breathing is probably an important part of supporting others in a way they know you are there so taking care of yourself is key.
To be more alive and for a longer period of time, I decided over a year ago now to start trying my hardest to eat "right" and exercise. I smoke the exercise. I love it. For a big girl, I move pretty good considering my knees are a blasted mess. The eating "right," better, healthy, etc is a HUGE struggle for me. I do decently well 75% of the time. But a C average in good eating seems pretty bad to the overachiever in me. I've tried so hard and so many different approaches, in the end, I know that I'm the only one holding up the show. Knowing that, however, hasn't helped me to improve.
So I guess I'm hoping joining SP in conjunction with the other program I am on will help me get over my struggles, at least begin recognizing them and banishing them before I turn into a giant ball of sludge.