Raining on my parade

Monday, May 30, 2011

So this morning I had to do a mandatory weigh in out here, guess they want to make sure that we're not getting fat and actually exercising while we're deployed...never happened before but I wasn't worried.
I weighed in at 131 pounds, it even surprised me because for the past three weeks I was stuck at 134. I was over the moon excited, and was so happy that I could change my weight tracker and tell everyone the good news.
Well I went to the chow hall and there's this Master Sergeant that I see in the gym from time to time. He asked me how did my weigh in go and I told him my weight and that I was so proud of myself for losing 9 pounds since I got here in March.
He says, "And you're proud of that why? I mean 9 pounds...what are you going to do when you get back to the states and you're around all of that temptation??"
I didn't know what to say at first, I was so shocked that he would even say that.
So I just told him I planned on getting a Personal Trainer Certification so this is definitely a permanent lifestyle and walked away.
I am hurt.
I am hurt because NO LEADER should ever demean someone who is trying to better themselves no matter how small they may think it is.
I am hurt because I have improved my body DRASTICALLY through all the weight training, I have replaced fat with MUSCLE so OF COURSE I wouldn't drop pounds on a scale, but my whole body is different, much smaller than when I got here with DEFINITION that I haven't had in years!
I am proud of the fact that I have done this the right way for once in my entire Marine Corps career and didn't just starve, take diet pills, and run to death everyday.
I am sick of the Marine Corps dictating what my standard should be and what I'm doing being looked at as not good enough.
This deployment has been nothing but constant disappointments with this organization and I have never encountered so much in one sitting. I can't take it anymore.
I have done my part, I have served my country after this term I am done.
I'm pretty sure I can go somewhere else where my shortcomings will be considered pretty damn impressive.
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    He was flat-out rude and hurtful. His unkind words surprised and hurt you, but you know who you are and what you've done to get where you are (and we do too, to some extent, and applaud you!)

    Use his hurtful unkindness as a springboard to even greater commitment to your journey, then you can turn what he used for harm into something good.

    He will feel no pain if you shun him, or if you return his rudeness. But it will affect him if you return his unkindness with genuine kindness. It is a difficult challenge, I know.

    Please know that I am impressed with your accomplishments and very proud of you. I'm praying for you during this difficult-in-so-many-ways tour, and am a friend in your corner.


    3565 days ago
    emoticon for what you are doing daily for your country and know you are very much appreciated by your own home SP team for your sacrifice and your dedication to being healthy.

    That was one major jerk you dealt with who most likely has his own weight issues and feels better belittling other's achievements. You did very well in saying you'd like to go for a personal trainer certification- you've got the dedication and know how on how to lead properly with a positive attitude and one that will motivate someone else to pursue their own weight loss goals.

    emoticon on seeing the scale move since I know its got to be very hard for it the scale to move down due to all that weight training you are doing. You've got to be pretty chisled out now and should feel GOOD and confident about the positive changes you continue to make in yourself. Don't give up and Don't let them get you down.

    If you truly feel its time to get out starting figuring out a game plan on where you want your life to head next and GOOD LUCK. emoticon
    3566 days ago
    Thanks for serving our country! I'm impressed by your dedication. Dn't let one jerk dictate your attitude. Keep up the good work!
    3566 days ago
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