So this morning I had to do a mandatory weigh in out here, guess they want to make sure that we're not getting fat and actually exercising while we're deployed...never happened before but I wasn't worried.
I weighed in at 131 pounds, it even surprised me because for the past three weeks I was stuck at 134. I was over the moon excited, and was so happy that I could change my weight tracker and tell everyone the good news.
Well I went to the chow hall and there's this Master Sergeant that I see in the gym from time to time. He asked me how did my weigh in go and I told him my weight and that I was so proud of myself for losing 9 pounds since I got here in March.
He says, "And you're proud of that why? I mean 9 pounds...what are you going to do when you get back to the states and you're around all of that temptation??"
I didn't know what to say at first, I was so shocked that he would even say that.
So I just told him I planned on getting a Personal Trainer Certification so this is definitely a permanent lifestyle and walked away.
I am hurt.
I am hurt because NO LEADER should ever demean someone who is trying to better themselves no matter how small they may think it is.
I am hurt because I have improved my body DRASTICALLY through all the weight training, I have replaced fat with MUSCLE so OF COURSE I wouldn't drop pounds on a scale, but my whole body is different, much smaller than when I got here with DEFINITION that I haven't had in years!
I am proud of the fact that I have done this the right way for once in my entire Marine Corps career and didn't just starve, take diet pills, and run to death everyday.
I am sick of the Marine Corps dictating what my standard should be and what I'm doing being looked at as not good enough.
This deployment has been nothing but constant disappointments with this organization and I have never encountered so much in one sitting. I can't take it anymore.
I have done my part, I have served my country after this term I am done.
I'm pretty sure I can go somewhere else where my shortcomings will be considered pretty damn impressive.