Friday, May 27, 2011
As I was walking out in the 90 degree heat with my feet aching after just walking for 15 minutes, I thought to myself ...what a weakling I'm feeling the pain already and I haven't even walked for 30 minutes yet...ugh!! What on earth has happened to me???? I was an avid athlete all of my life...went to fire school and just myself and one other girl ( she was 10 years younger than me at the time)out of 7 girls graduated with my class ...the other 20 were men. I was so strong and fit and obstacles were just fun challenges for me. WHAT HAPPENED to that girl????? Ugh!! I am so disappointed in myself and yet I know I have to push on! It's now or never!! Time is up!!! I will be 47 next month and with each passing year it gets tougher and tougher. I feel my heart working harder than it needs to....and my muscles have atrophied horribly. I currently had a tough time with a peri-menopausal issue and became very anemic, so I am struggling with getting my energy back. All in all I need to quit ignoring how unfit I have become and start taking it seriously and not give up or give in! It's going to take a lot of hard work and determination. I can do this and I will !!! I will not let anything stand in my way this time!! No more excuses!!