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It Might be Hope

Sunday, May 22, 2011

Last night I wrote that I was content to be in my own skin. I typed without really knowing what my fingers would write, and was surprised at what came out. Comforted. It’s not a state of being I can find in my memory.

I’ve had time to think about this today.. and I’ve come to the conclusion that it’s the Spark site (and all the crazy wonderful people it’s made of) that have helped me find this space. For the first time in.. I don’t even know how long.. I can see possibilities. Options. But more importantly, the potential to act on them. For so long I’ve existed in a haze. No color. No connection. No real belief in anything more.

And now.. I’ve managed to act. I’ve managed consistency for three months. Three months of building-block steps that have helped me say good-bye to at least a few unhealthy habits. A few unhealthy beliefs. A few unhealthy, soul-numbing pounds.

I’ve been able to take control of a part of my life, one small step at a time. And while that particular journey isn’t over, it gives me hope – tangible hope -- that I can do the same in other parts.

And for all of this, I am grateful. There is a tenuous peace inside of me tonight, and I will savor it while I can.

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    Congratulations on your new-found insights. I am happy you find SP so supportive. You can keep these feelings alive, because you choose your attitude and how to react to each and every event that occurs in your life. Your background says, "Gratitude." Someone just pointed out to me yesterday that the word is almost like, "great attitude!" It sounds like you are already doing a great job, so keep it up!
    2527 days ago

    Comment edited on: 5/24/2011 8:06:13 AM
  • BOJO70
    What a wonderful picture of peace you have painted in my mind. What a beautiful blog to enjoy at the end of a hectic day.
    Thank you!
    2528 days ago
    Great blog! Congratulations! You're in a great place, and everyday it's gong to get a little bit better!
    2528 days ago
    What a great blog! I hope it's the first of many! You've been really supportive of my efforts, and I can't tell you how much your encouragement helps.

    I don't know if you saw my blog today, but it's not unlike yours. I've also been thinking about how much SP has contributed to my feelings about things. Blogging has helped so much. I honestly don't know what my fingers will write, but whatever comes out is unfiltered. This way I can vent, share, ask advice or say whatever I want to. It helps me in ways I never, ever expected.

    Keep up the blogging. It really does help you sort things out. I'm glad we're spark friends!!!!
    2529 days ago
    I agree, one day/block at a time = success!

    2529 days ago
    Building one block at a time will lead you to success. It is wonderful to have a site like SP to support, comfort, encourage, inspire and understand us on our journey to a healthier life. Sounds like you are on the right path..CONGRATS on your milestones!
    2529 days ago
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