Coming Out of Hiding

Sunday, May 22, 2011

I’ve been absent from Spark for just over a month now. I’ve been in hiding with my sugar.

I wrote my last blog at the beginning of April and I did really well for a while. Then I went to NYC for a vacation. I got very little sleep, drank way too much coffee, and ate WAY too much sugar. I came back and started to feel really depressed. I started to self-medicate with sugar and caffeine.

I still feel really depressed. I don’t want to get out of bed most days and I have zero energy. I know my diet is at least partly to blame. I went on Dr Fuhrman’s website last night to research depression. He recommends a strict ETL diet, vitamin D, and EPA supplements. He also suggests exercise and a light box. I can’t afford the light box right now because I started acupuncture treatments for my allergies and PCOS. Luckily, we are heading toward summer and the natural sunshine will be available to me soon. Hopefully, after summer I will have paid off my acupuncture treatments and will be able to invest in a light box for the cloudy fall. I’m also going to mention my depression and over eating to my acupuncturist.

Meanwhile, my friend FRUITYCHERRY has inspired me to get serious about ETL again. We are starting the six week ETL challenge tomorrow. I’m both excited and nervous. I think the key this time will be to focus on my health instead of my weight. I’m going to weigh in tomorrow morning anyhow- just to have a mark of where I started. I know my weight has skyrocketed. I’m barely able to fit into a size 10 and feel more comfortable in a size 12. I probably won’t weigh myself very often. Maybe once a month? I’m going to focus on how I feel instead. I need to take care of myself.

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    I am so. Stinkin'. Proud of you Debbie!! 1) You came here and talked publicly with us about your struggles. This is HUGE!! This is awesome!!! 2) You are actively pursuing a change. This is awesome! :-) 3) You are partnering up with the most wonderfulest Julia for the ETL. This is AWESOME! 4) You're choosing something super good for you with ETL. This is AWESOME!

    I bet this will really give you what you need. And I most CERTAINLY can relate to the sugar addiction so please do not feel alone in this. I am so excited to have you back and look forward to walking along this journey with you!

    ((((((HUGS))))))))))) and love,

    ~ Molly
    3564 days ago
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    I think this 6 weeks is what a lot of us need...it seems like everyone has triggers that need some checking up on. I've been being way to generous with the "treats," which are mostly sugar...and I totally get you on how it's hard to stop and can lead to feeling depressed. I do believe a strict Eat To Live diet will bring the happiness in!

    We can all do it!!!
    3566 days ago
  • SUNNYH99
    Hi Debbie, I was so glad to see you had a new blog entry and couldn't wait to read it when I got a chance. Welcome back! I know how it is to relapse with sugar and then feel like $hi* I can say that although I haven't been able to be squeaky clean and 100% compliant with the E2L plan, I've made progress. I'm not ready to give this another 6 weeks right now, but I do feel like I was able to make some big changes that I'm still following. So please be kind to yourself, and try to take it one day at a time. I hope you'll post about it often, and I will look forward to reading how it goes for you!
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    3566 days ago
  • 55WALKER
    So glad you are back. I've missed you.
    I'm on board for this six weeks also; needing to tidy up some sloppy habits.
    3567 days ago

    Debbie, I have been thinking about you. I am so glad you are on board with the challenge!!! It is time to get serious and then STAY that way! We have to stay honest and very connected!!! I have missed you.

    I think I am finally ready to address my sugar addiction once and for all. I totally relate to you on that one. It is one of those things that, once triggered, spirals out of control quickly. Let's be in touch on the trials and tribulations of overcoming this. I think it would help me tremendously, if you are willing. Let me know. :o)

    Let's celebrate the fabulous healthy food that we love and enjoy this journey together. The emotional issues are too big to be ignored, in my opinion. Many people can relate, and that is why it is so great to share. It helps relieve some of that burden.

    Be in touch!!!


    3567 days ago
    Welcome back from the missing......Good luck on your ETL challenge.
    3567 days ago
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