Coming Out of Hiding
Sunday, May 22, 2011
I’ve been absent from Spark for just over a month now. I’ve been in hiding with my sugar.
I wrote my last blog at the beginning of April and I did really well for a while. Then I went to NYC for a vacation. I got very little sleep, drank way too much coffee, and ate WAY too much sugar. I came back and started to feel really depressed. I started to self-medicate with sugar and caffeine.
I still feel really depressed. I don’t want to get out of bed most days and I have zero energy. I know my diet is at least partly to blame. I went on Dr Fuhrman’s website last night to research depression. He recommends a strict ETL diet, vitamin D, and EPA supplements. He also suggests exercise and a light box. I can’t afford the light box right now because I started acupuncture treatments for my allergies and PCOS. Luckily, we are heading toward summer and the natural sunshine will be available to me soon. Hopefully, after summer I will have paid off my acupuncture treatments and will be able to invest in a light box for the cloudy fall. I’m also going to mention my depression and over eating to my acupuncturist.
Meanwhile, my friend FRUITYCHERRY has inspired me to get serious about ETL again. We are starting the six week ETL challenge tomorrow. I’m both excited and nervous. I think the key this time will be to focus on my health instead of my weight. I’m going to weigh in tomorrow morning anyhow- just to have a mark of where I started. I know my weight has skyrocketed. I’m barely able to fit into a size 10 and feel more comfortable in a size 12. I probably won’t weigh myself very often. Maybe once a month? I’m going to focus on how I feel instead. I need to take care of myself.