I AM WORTH IT
Saturday, May 21, 2011
It is a Sunny Saturday here is Cali. I was reading a blog this morning and an email from one of my good SparkPeople friends and they reminded me of some not so good memories. I come from a family of 6 kids. My father was an alcoholic. We were abused as kids. Both mentally and physically. I have been cooking and cleaning since I was 9. Taking care of my little sister and older brother. My 3 older sisters were already out of the house by this time. One of my sisters was gone at 13, she ran away to live with her 24 year old boyfriend. For years I stayed in a shell. Not feeling like I was worth anything. I had very low self-esteem. That carried into my adult life. I was the one that always took care of others and not myself. I could never say no to anyone. I remember one year all my sisters wanted to take my mother out to dinner for Mother’s Day but did not want to take the kids. They actually ask me to watch all the kids. Talk about heart breaking, but that was me, the one everyone took advantage of. But about 4 years ago I finally realized I am worth it, I AM WORTH TAKING CARE OF ME!!!!!! So I did, I started my life style change for ME. I am now capable of saying NO. I have learned to eat right and exercise. I have lost 65 pounds since I started my new journey. I have had my issues still and my setbacks. But the main thing is that even with the setbacks I have learned to maintain. That in itself is a Huge VICTORY for me. I have been stuck on a plateau for a while and I still have a long way to go, but I have not given up because I AM WORTH IT.