My week 3 so far... what an emotional roller coaster!
Thursday, May 19, 2011
Well, this has been a weird kind of week. I forced myself to take a 2 day break from exercising to deal with the constant freaking out of everything I was doing not being enough. These past 2 days have been emotional hell. I literally put myself through the most emotional abuse I have ever received in my life but by the end of yesterday the storm was over and I could finally sit back and just be happy with my progress. I've lost 14 lbs so far since the beginning of april and 8 of those pounds have been within the last 3 weeks. I got out a bag yesterday and dropped it onto my scale and piled stuff into it until I reached 14 lbs and then lifted it up. I could feel how heavy it was and that right there was a bit of an eye opener. I realized this heavy bag is what I've worked off so far and that 14lbs is not on my body anymore. I mean really. It's 14 lbs!
I CAN do this. I know there is no way in hell I'm going to be my ideal weight by the time we go on vacation and I think I'm starting to be okay with that. I do have over a month still til our vacation and I am just going to focus on keeping up my hard work until then and even afterwards and then NEXT year when we possibly go back to Nova Scotia I'll knock them all over then with my progress (and myself too cuz I should be bathing suit ready by this time next year.. fingers crossed!!) I know I'm bound to still have my ups and downs but for today I am okay.