List of grievances
Thursday, May 19, 2011
Last night I was bored and started looking through a binder I've had since college that has all of these old poems, journal entries and papers from various creative writing classes. I found this one piece of paper that had a very long list of things that I hated about myself. It made me really sad to read it and see how much I hated myself back then. Not much has changed with my body physically since then (I'm probably about 10 pounds heavier) but so much has changed emotionally and mentally with me. I was almost in tears after reading it cause it brought me back to those feelings from the past. An example from my list: my hair, my smile, my laugh, my teeth, my personality, etc.
I called my bestest and shared my find with her. I know why God brought her into my life, she had the best response to my laundry list of hate: "Most of the things that you used to hate about yourself, those are some of the biggest reasons why I love you."
The list of things that I hate about myself currently is empty. There are things that I don't like and am changing but overall I love myself. And that's the way it should be.