FRESKA

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wayyyy off target...

Tuesday, May 17, 2011

i decided to look at my tracker. i know i'm not moving down and in fact and fighting to re-lose the weight i gained recently. i hit 177 barely for a few days. but it teetered. and then i fell off the wagon pretty much and gained up to ? not sure.the scales i use (including gym) have been screwy. so up to 187/186 as of friday (today is monday) (well its technichally tuesday but i have to go to sleep still) then today it said 184... then who knows... ?? i am hopeing when i weigh myself in a few more days it will continue to go down.
i'm working very hard at the gym. i am catching up on this season of BL and i'm at week 10 now. i see the girls are pretty much in my wieght zone.(a lot of them) and i think boy they did sooo much! but still look so fat! thats what i look like! so there's a lot more effort and determination that i need to put forth.
i wish for a couple weeks with trainers like bob and jillian. to push me and to tell me what to do next at the gym and for how long. though if i use my brain i am sure i can make up a great plan for the day.
i am facing reality. no bob or jillian is gonna be here to push me. i need to find it in myself. and try some classes too, to change things up.
i am blessed with a gym membership. so i am back to going i went fri sat sun and monday and plan on going today too. i am finding my stamina is still in tact even though i bailed on the gym for a couple weeks. and in fact i am ready to be pushed more. today i did cardio, weights, some floor work and then went to zumba for an hour. and i could have done more.
i am hoping to see the target the red line on my tracker says i should be at now. 160 pounds. i am wayyyy off... yehh like 25 pounds off.
i think i'll do a clense in a week or so. for like 3 days and do a small like 5 day "diet" to reset my body. but all in all i know its just trying to eat good each and every day.
i hope i can offically log 177 on my tracker soon and continue on with the journey to 160 and below! this 177 has been haunting me. and i want to get sooo far past it that a 5 pound increase cant even touch it.
thanks for stopping by to read this. if you have any ideas to jump start this i would love to lose 5 pounds in a week. for a change. just to get things rolling again. :) take care!
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  • FRESKA
    i am on show 11 now! i didnt want to know who the final four were i already heard irene name tossed around though. darn. i have a lot of shows left to catch up on.

    thanks for reading my blabberings.. lol thanks for the encouragment! :) yeh i need to eat a balanced meal and i always NEEED protien and a carb to feel satisfied and not starving or sick feeling sometimes. when i am eating better i try to choose whole grain carbs as much as possible. i hardly ever eat potatoes anymore.

    yeh i feel like i could be pushed harder at the gym. so, since i dont have jillian or bob i am trying to get the courage to push myself out of my comfort zone and do things on my own that maybe i have done or not, but not alone.

    today i did the strider for 35 min hard the whole time.. then stretched good then went on the eliptical for a 5k.. i decided if the contestants can do it so can i. i was a spec short of 3.11 miles on the strider, 2.9 or something?
    anyway i hate the tredmill and i hate running. but i decided i need to do things that will cause muscle confusion and burn calories. so i walked at a brisk pace and did about 4 short sprints during the 52 minutes it took me to get to 5k (3.11 miles). i challenged myself to see if i could do 8.5 which was a big marker for hanna or her sister? in the show i watched yesterday. i did 7.5 and the last time did 8.5. i was scared i would get road rash tripping and face planting on the belt! so i think i did it about 30 seconds. (i was counting to myself) but i had to slow it down fast! lol cause i was scared! lol but i did it at least. and next time i'll practice "jumping" to the sides like they do. and doing it longer.
    thanks again for your encouragement. i think the reason i let myself kinda go more was that wall i hit for so long and barely getting to 177 but it goes up a few pounds in a few days. (i mean when i am trying not mess up). so prob cause of the few month platue i had i prob subconsiously was checking out a little bit.
    but i want to push past this wall and look back and say it was worth it.
    well i have to get up in 5 hours. gotta go do a massage today!
    ttyl! thanks again!
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  • MELLABELLAS
    That is cool how you came back and still have the stamina for your workouts. That means that you have not lost muscle!
    I have been watching the BL this season and I dunno how caught up you are but Right now they are down to the final 4! It's been a very exciting season. I am rooting for Olivia!!
    I got stuck at 184 a few weeks ago and it was very frustrating. I was losing hope! this will sound kinda gross but I was retaining water and shhhh....constipated! I dropped 2 pounds in one day so I know it wasn't weight from fat but weight from other things.
    If you really wannt speed up weight loss I would watch salt and carbs. Those two things make me hang on to weight! I could never give up those things permanently but for a few days I can handle it.
    I know you can do it! You have come so far! I am so happy for you taking a break and being able to come back and workout again! Way to go!

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    3075 days ago
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