wayyyy off target...
Tuesday, May 17, 2011
i decided to look at my tracker. i know i'm not moving down and in fact and fighting to re-lose the weight i gained recently. i hit 177 barely for a few days. but it teetered. and then i fell off the wagon pretty much and gained up to ? not sure.the scales i use (including gym) have been screwy. so up to 187/186 as of friday (today is monday) (well its technichally tuesday but i have to go to sleep still) then today it said 184... then who knows... ?? i am hopeing when i weigh myself in a few more days it will continue to go down.
i'm working very hard at the gym. i am catching up on this season of BL and i'm at week 10 now. i see the girls are pretty much in my wieght zone.(a lot of them) and i think boy they did sooo much! but still look so fat! thats what i look like! so there's a lot more effort and determination that i need to put forth.
i wish for a couple weeks with trainers like bob and jillian. to push me and to tell me what to do next at the gym and for how long. though if i use my brain i am sure i can make up a great plan for the day.
i am facing reality. no bob or jillian is gonna be here to push me. i need to find it in myself. and try some classes too, to change things up.
i am blessed with a gym membership. so i am back to going i went fri sat sun and monday and plan on going today too. i am finding my stamina is still in tact even though i bailed on the gym for a couple weeks. and in fact i am ready to be pushed more. today i did cardio, weights, some floor work and then went to zumba for an hour. and i could have done more.
i am hoping to see the target the red line on my tracker says i should be at now. 160 pounds. i am wayyyy off... yehh like 25 pounds off.
i think i'll do a clense in a week or so. for like 3 days and do a small like 5 day "diet" to reset my body. but all in all i know its just trying to eat good each and every day.
i hope i can offically log 177 on my tracker soon and continue on with the journey to 160 and below! this 177 has been haunting me. and i want to get sooo far past it that a 5 pound increase cant even touch it.
thanks for stopping by to read this. if you have any ideas to jump start this i would love to lose 5 pounds in a week. for a change. just to get things rolling again. :) take care!