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Gone was the feeling of guilt, Big victory

Sunday, May 15, 2011

Last night I had a night of boredom and restlessness. I started out by just eating a Lean Cusine for dinner. My hubby had went to a Mexican Fiesta fundraiser banquet where he helped serve the food. Maybe that was part of it. Could I have felt deprived not being able to join in on the fun and food. I tried to fix the eating by nibbling on popcorn. That didn't work, then I broiled some cheese on my diet bread and had a glass of milk. There was 2 hot links in the refrigerator calling my name but I knew they were bad for me. I had a Healthy whole wheat pumpkin muffin I had made earlier that day. Frustrated, I just kept thinking about those dumb hotdogs.
The moral of this story, I should of ate them first and been done with it because after hubby came home I did eat them and then I was OK.

The beauty of this story is for the first time in my whole life I didn't have that retching guilt feeling. I didn't detest myself for failing again. I didn't throw up my hands and say I give up
I can never do this. IN fact, I FELT CALM. I KNOW I can do this and one over indulged evening is not going to cause me to falter. I am at peace with myself and got up this morning and jumped right into Sparking. I feel like all is right and enjoyed my breakfast of cream of wheat and blueberries. My question to myself is what happened to me to change that guilt into self acceptance. I will be pondering on this. But I can tell you I have had a big breakthrough emoticon
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  • LITTLE3LAM
    It happens to all of us. I'm glad you won't give up. That's the best way to make progress!
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    2741 days ago
  • EVELYN5877
    Well done, after all, however it's packaged, food is only fuel and there is no point in eating stuff you don't want just because it is supposed to be good for you That changes every 5 minutes too. Hope you really enjoyed them. emoticon
    2742 days ago
  • JILL313
    Gail, It's so good to know even when you have those bumps in the road--and believe me I've had many--you just get right back on Track without any guilt. I am so happy that SP works so well for us as before I would stress out and feel guilty when I occassionally overate but thanks to SP, not anymore. We are in this together for the rest of our lives.
    God Bless You.

    Hugs,

    Jill
    2743 days ago
  • CJMOK1121
    GAIL: What a blessing to get to that point, I think sometimes I get there and sometimes it takes two or three days before I can get back. But I think even if it takes me a few days I have at least got to the point that I know, I WILL NOT GIVE UP. So GOOD FOR YOU. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

    HAVE A GREAT WEEK: CJ from OK. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    2743 days ago
  • MARGIEH0104
    Gail...I think you probably found the secret to your continued weight loss and care for your health!
    Maybe a gift from God ? Sounds like it had to be. I always know when something is a gift from God, as it is always something that is uncharacterist for me.
    I say...don't question it, just give thanks! I am so happy for you!
    I heard the other day, "the only way you fail is if you quit !" Keep up the good work...your on the right track. Now just take it one day at a time.
    2743 days ago
  • SOSMEGOD
    Good for you...Keep up the good work.
    2743 days ago
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