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Friday, May 13, 2011
This is just a middle of the night (or morning, depends on how you look at it) rush of nothing when sleep refuses to settle in, and my neck hurts, and my right hand, and right leg are numb, and restless, and my low back hurts when I lay down. I really tried to get to sleep in bed with cool sheets, and soft pillows, and quiet music, and it just wasn't working. Rather than disturb my hubby on his nights off to sleep in bed, and home from work - I tiptoed out, put on my neck brace and robe, and came to the computer to try to weary myself down.
I do not want to, like to, need to be a bummer, a downer, a complainer. Sometimes I just get so flustered, there isn't much to do.
So, I think about who needs prayer - my little grandson at the ER tonight - I do not know how he is, I did not hear back; a good friend's father who suffered a stroke; a spark friend facing total knee replacement in the next week; and a myriad of other people. I find it is a good thing to do when I can't sleep. At least it makes me feel like I am doing something useful when there isn't much I can do about things.
As soon as I lay down, I could tell my low back was very unhappy, and my shoulders, and neck chimed in, and my knee, and leg, and stuff sang in chorus.
I have not been tracking my food, other than yes I am eating 5 fruits and veggies, and drinking my water. I log my fitness after the fact, and am not where I was pre-surgery. Especially with the gain from the steroids.
I bought myself a pair of jeans anyway this week, even if it was not in a happy size, because I wanted to have a pair that was new and not just a pull on legging kind.
It looks like the rash is trying to decide to come back.
Positive things despite junk that just happens or that you deal with:
The sun is shining somewhere.
God cares and is in control. Even if things feel out of my control.
There is always a reason, even if I do not know what it is.
Pray, amazing things can happen.
I am sooo glad God created colors - it is an amazing miracle that rates right up there with new babies and kittens and flowers and water.
Happiness depends on happenings, Joy comes from someplace deep inside. So, despite the negative stuff that happens, I am joyful. Just read all of Philippians, or James.
May your morning, day, evening, week, and life be blessed.