The good, the bad, and the ugly...
Friday, May 13, 2011
Today, has been one of those days. I've been up, down, and everywhere in between. I mentally know that there is a very scientific reason for this - it's called being a girl. However, this does not make it easier to stay motivate to get on the (BLASTED) treadmill and push my self past my comfort zone. Nor has it been easy to make the right choices about what I shove in my face today, because ALL I want is the stuff I know isn't going to fuel my body properly, not to mention what it will do to my calorie count!
So how did I overcome? I yelled. I screamed. I cursed. I name called. All at my own body - for being weak sauce and lazy and broken. Again, mentally I know that my lungs are still healing from the 2 week long bout with pneumonia in April, but emotionally, I am so frustrated it brings me to tears! Why do I treat my body this way? Why can't I see the good that it still offers me even when I haven't taken care of it?
In the end I met all of my goals today, but I think that tomorrow my goal should be to be nicer to this body of mine even if I'm not particularly comfortable with its current mass and shape.... Perhaps I'll say nice things to it to push through, congratulate it with healthy, fulfilling, nutritious food, and maybe even tell it its beautiful.
Heres to a new day, everyday.