Letter from my future self
Thursday, May 12, 2011
I know you hit an important milestone today, your first of MANY TO COME. I know that you’re excited to be able to fit into jeans that are not a size ‘W’. I know that along with your excitement and feelings of accomplishment come a little fear. Fear that you will not make it to the next milestone. Fear that you will not maintain these lifestyle changes that have brought you this far. Fear that you will let yourself down again. Let me assure you, the fear is healthy, but completely unnecessary! You are ON YOUR WAY, and this time the changes are FOREVER.
I know you’re wonder who I am and how I know so much about you. Well, I am YOU, your future self. I’m on the other side of that door that you’ve tried so often to come through. Let me tell you a little about myself. I am at a comfortable, healthy weight that I can maintain. I won’t tell you what it is, because then our journey becomes about a number, and that’s never really what it was REALLY about. I eat things that I love every day, and I don’t feel deprived. I work out 5-6 times a week and although I still don’t love it, I don’t feel right when I miss it. I do a variety of activity… I lift weights, ride the elliptical, run and swim to name a few. Yes, I said RUN AND SWIM. Hang in there, you are capable of so much more than you even dream right now!
In a nutshell, I am FREE! I am free of the fat that weighs you down. I am free of the joint pain that you experience daily. My closet it filled with cute things that I LOVE to put on, and I never wonder what to wear. I don’t have to go shopping for every event because my size has been stable for long enough that I have clothes for every occasion. When I do go shopping, it is not a dreadful experience. Believe it or not I don’t even work up a sweat when trying clothes on. And if there are tears, they are tears of joy, because sometimes I still can’t believe the person looking back from the mirror is ME.
I know that you are in a hurry to meet me, to get here. But I need to tell you something important. Everything that you are going thru now, every emotion, every experience, every setback is vital. I need you to go through those things to make me this successful person I am now. I need you to learn how to love yourself. To find joy in non-food related things. To de-couple your self-worth from your pants size. I need you to celebrate and enjoy each and every milestone as it comes. Because these days when I feel like returning to our old habits, it is those experiences that keep me on track. I still struggle sometimes, but not nearly as often because of the things you have taught me. So keep learning, and enjoy the journey, and I’ll see you on this side of the door. I won’t be sitting idle, waiting though, you might have to run to catch me. But let me assure you the sweat and tears is worth it. I feel GREAT, and so will you.
Your future self