Where am I? Waiting.... (with pics)

Thursday, May 12, 2011

I'm here. I've been here all along. Things have been busy but truthfully, I keep waiting for some big milestone to blog. Some amazing accomplishment to announce, but I'm here.

I've lost a few ounces less than 95 lbs. I'm super proud of that, but I've been waiting for 100. I'm 202 lbs and I'm waiting for onderland. Waiting.....

Lots of changes have been going on in my life the last few months and everything seems to be in some transition period and I keep waiting for things to settle down. Some of the changes ... my 18 yr old daughter decided she was grown and didn't want to follow my rules so she up and moved out a couple months ago. Then she got pregnant, then engaged and now she's planning a wedding to an airman who is going to be stationed in Guam. He's a great guy, but they are apart right now and she is soooo drama and man it can be consuming if I let it. Plus, my only daughter is making me a grandma and may be half way across the world when the time comes.

My oldest son also got engaged and moved six hours away to follow her. I don't know how that will turn out. I have my doubts, but can only sit and watch

I downsized my place and moved from a four bedroom house to a two bedroom townhouse with my youngest son. I really love it so that's good.

My youngest son turned 16 and got his drivers license. We both feel let out of the prison of being on each others schedule. But man is it different. A year ago, all three kids were at home, and I was a very busy mom and now I am almost an empty nester. My son has gotten a job and a car and we are two ships passing in the hall. Crazy

My brother got married so I had a wedding to attend and family photos to take. Truthfully, I was really happy with how they turned out. I found an awesome dress and felt pretty. I'll show you photos at the end.

Then I turned 45 a week ago. Forty five is great and I feel great, but I'm definitely in transition. Not sure what to do next or how to proceed.

I've been having a lot of knee and shoulder pain since I had kicked up the workouts and so I visited my doctor who also did a fellowship in sports medicine and she listened and did a thorough examination and said I have runners knee and bursitis in the tendon that run along side my knee. She gave me exercises and ibuprofen and suggested I not do the squats, lunges and step ups I've been doing. Oh and I also have rotator cuff issues in my shoulders from lifting and swimming. I told her if I quit doing everything that irritates my knee and shoulders, I wouldn't be doing anything. She also had xrays of my knees and called to tell me I have mild arthritis in both knees. Not surprising considering I carried around almost 100 more pounds for the last 20 years. So again, transition... trying to decide how to proceed with my workouts. Barrel ahead, ignoring her advice and the pain, or find a new way to be fit. I have no idea.

So anyway, I've not run away or given up. I still check in every day and read all my friends blogs, but I've been quiet... waiting.... just don't know for what.

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    You look stunning and that dress is gorgeous on you!!
    2488 days ago
    You look amazing, LOVE that dress!!!
    2488 days ago
    You look great! So pretty and sexy too. LOL. And you are really coping well with all the changes in your life. I would be bonkers!! LOL. You will get to onderland soon. Stay with it.
    2553 days ago
    You look great! Oh my goodness and so young. I would not peg you as getting ready to be a grandma.
    You shouldn't feel like your waiting, look at you, you are living life. Almost in Onederland! You can do it.
    Change is hard but it also creates plenty of opportunities.
    2587 days ago
    Girl, you look AMAZING!!!!!!!!!!
    2588 days ago
    All I can say is WOW woman, you look fantastic and confident. You've come a long way baby, 95 pounds is a huge accomplishment. Keep up the great work on your weight loss.

    Sounds like things are pretty crazy with your household. I have a similar situation, almost an empty nester too, trying hard to find what it is I'm supposed to do now that the busy schedule of motherhood is almost nonexistent now. Hmmmm, but change is good and I am sure you will find something great to do with your time. This is the stage of life where it can be all about YOU, and that's a good thing. Embrace it.

    And blog more often, you don't have to wait for a milestone to blog. We love hearing about the every day trials and triumphs. We are all in this together and the best part is having the love and support of your SP buddies. Lots of hugs to ya and keep up the good work.
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    2590 days ago
    The dress is beautiful and you are definitely looking awesome....focus on what you can do to get to your goal.

    Let me tell you, there will always be doctor's reports, medical diagnoses, aging issues, etc. none of us those limitations got you where you are today..find all those brilliant positive things in life that made you who you are and celebrate. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    2592 days ago
    You're looking awesome! Wow lots of changes.

    It's amazing how fast our kids grow up. Can't even begin to imagine the drama of pregnancy hormones and a long distance relationship. Hoping things settle down for you.

    Whatever you decide to do - you'll be doing it from onederland, I'm sure!

    Congrats on the 95 pounds! emoticon
    2593 days ago
    You are looking great! Congratulations for losing 95 pounds. What a huge accomplishment!

    You are going through a lot of transition! I am sorry about your daughter and son who moved away. That must hurt. I pray they would continue keeping the lines of communication open and that your daughter will be close when she has the baby.
    2593 days ago
    Looking great. I hope your doctor will help you figure out what you can do. Even if it means a referral to a PT or someone else.

    I think that the trick for me as I approach 45 is to know that life is about transition and we are always in some kind of transition. Good luck getting through it well.

    But, we are willing to listen anytime not just when you get to the goal. Keep moving forward.
    2594 days ago
    You look beautiful! Seriously amazing! That is so awesome you've lost so much weight!
    It sounds like you have a lot going with your family, which I am sure is stressful. It's got to be hard seeing your kids grow up and make their own decisions. Congrats on soon becoming a grandmother!
    2594 days ago
    Love the dress! You look Fabulous!!
    2594 days ago
  • ALOFA0509

    BEAUTIFUL!!!! You look amazing sista ;)
    2594 days ago
    You look AMAZING!
    2594 days ago
    Very nice pics!
    2594 days ago
    Awesome dress! Sounds like you have had a whirlwind of changes lately.

    Remember, things DO happen for a reason [even though sometimes they seem ridiculous or wrong at the time], and things will work out. Keep nursing your shoulders and knees and focusing on nutrition...you've come so far! Keep up the good work!

    2594 days ago
    You look fabulous - that dress is amazing on you!!!
    2594 days ago
    You are looking AMAZING, a HAWT Momma ! And you have been busy, busy, busy...as for your oldest son and daughter wishing them the best. You are going to be a young, hot looking Grand-Maman ! Physically, things will fall into place so keep up the great work, ONDERLAND is looming and it is yours for the catching.

    For your youngest son, ah, know the feelings, good thing my hubby & I can text my youngest (18) and also my oldest (20) living in Montreal because they hardly answer their cellphones *lol*. Time to put all the energy on YOU which you seem to be doing more than alright:)
    2594 days ago
    It's so good to hear from you! Thank you.

    You look amazing. Just beautiful and with obvious reasons to feel pretty. I think you're stunning.

    The transitions -- and like you said, you have many to go through right now -- are something you will overcome because you are focused on the result you're trying to achieve. I am confident of that.

    I would like to suggest that you ask your doctor to discuss getting a referral to a physical therapist or sports therapist. They can help you isolate and strengthen all the 'helper' muscles so you're better able (as a body) to copy with the stress. Have you considered bicycling (spinning?)

    You'll find your own answers and you'll get to where you want to be. I'm glad you're here and I'm glad to know what's going on with you. Thank you for sharing this!
    2594 days ago
    You look great! I only have one son...and he moved out a few years ago... it has been one of the hardest transitions in my life. I have more time....but I don't see him enough...he is just too busy to come home for a visit. emoticon
    2594 days ago
    O.M.Goddess ... you look amazing!!!
    Good to hear from you too.
    2594 days ago
    You look fantastic! Make sure that you get some me time in there somewhere.
    2594 days ago
    You look amazing and as for the kids. you did your work. If they are happy and healthy-that's it. Enjoy the weddings! You will have fab Mom-of-the dresses!
    2594 days ago
  • HHI0901
    WOW what a crazy life you have! I hope you are able to keep your head on straight through it all... and you look great. Happy belated birthday :)
    2594 days ago
    You look stunning.
    2594 days ago
  • CAROLYN1213
    I LOVE that dress!!! And your hair! You look amazing girl!!! You should be very proud of yourself!!! You look confident and strong. I have had two knee surgeries on my left knee and have osteo-arthritis in both knees. I did water aerobics and rode my bike a lot at first to make my legs stronger without putting high impact on my joints. You are right, you have to do what you can to obtain and maintain as much mobility as possible while you are younger.

    As you get closer to 'Onderland' or any other big goal, it is common to think you need to be stricter with your diet, sometimes you actually need to increase your healthy fats and decrease your fruit and grain intake after 2 p.m.

    Keep moving towards your goals! You are doing great!
    2594 days ago
    Looking Good!! Probably just having a regrouping period. Nothing wrong with that. Listen to your body, you want to be able to use it for another 35 to 45 years.

    You have done an excellent job of improving your health and energy. Last thing you want is to hurt yourself and not be able to move. Keep up the good work!
    2594 days ago
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