It's That Kind of Time
Tuesday, May 10, 2011
I'm not exactly sure what's wrong with me but my motivation is waning. So far, I've skipped all 7 of my allotted "Free" days and today when I tried to run 5 miles for the first time, I just couldn't pull myself to go past the first. I wasn't myself on the elliptical and when it comes to getting up in the mornings I'd just much rather roll around to the other side of the bed.
It worries me because on top of that I keep getting frustrated with the idea that I can't just eat whatever I want and lose weight. I was doing really well before, keeping my nutrition in check but all of a sudden I just got really pissed off that I can't simply eat a full plate of food and then follow it up with way more dessert than what I should be eating.
I'm so close to hitting my 6 mile goal, and I'm pretty much halfway to my ultimate goal weight (from the 190 I was back 2 years ago). I'm not really sure what to do to get myself back into it and excited about the changes to come. I'd be so angry if I just let this sabotage my efforts.