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Help me Sabotage my Self-Sabotage!!!

Monday, May 09, 2011

Man did I have a great week last week! I started Boot Camp, got in all of my cardio and videos (even with my excruciatingly slow country internet service). I tracked my food better than I've done in months. I lost 3 pounds!!! WOO HOO!!

So, how did I celebrate? By eating everything in sight today: graham crackers at breakfast, Hershey kisses for my mid-morning snack, hunk-o-cheese with my salad at lunch, then cookies, cookies, cookies all afternoon long...

I have a headache now from all the sugar. Bah! I also had to drag myself through my workouts this afternoon which means I went at half speed. Ugh!

So, why do I keep doing this? Some would argue that I really don't want to lose this weight and the self-sabotage is a way to maintain my current size. A couple of years ago, I would have balked at that logic, but now am not so sure. Can any of my SparkPeeps shed some light on this dilemma?
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    I think we do want to change, but it is easiest to resort to the same old habits that landed us on SP in the first place. Don't beat yourself up though.

    You will not be perfect, so what you do is get better. That means acknowledging that this is you struggle and celebrating when you don't do it as often, or you recover faster, or you catch yourself before you go into a full fledges binge. Whateve it takes to make this journey successful!

    It is just like any other character issue you are fighting. Some days are better than others, but there are definitely victories to be acknowledged and celebrated (without food of course).
    2488 days ago
    I'm guilty of the same thing. But the important thing is to try to not beat yourself up over it. We all have our bad days, but they don't have to rule our's okay to mess up every once in awhile as long as you can bounce back from it. Doing bootcamp is a great way to lift your mood and burn off calories. Hang in there, you can do this!
    2520 days ago
    My thoughts on self-sabotage is that it normally happens when you are too constrained throughout the week. Any sort of diet that severely limits calories or forces you to never eat the things you like is bound to come across hurtles like this where you just snap and eat everything in sight, and it's easier to do that right after a major drop. It's easier to justify it. For me, there are three methods I use to combat this, and they work - I haven't had a self-sabotage day in months, literally. First, I decide it's okay to be a slow loser, averaging a pound a week. This sets my calorie range high enough that I can live with it comfortably and not feel guilty. If I try to lower my calories too much, I will have binge days. Second, I try to have one day each week where I eat a little extra. This doesn't mean going hogwild eating gallons of ice cream, but just eating a little extra for each meal. It keeps your metabolism guessing and gives you a day when you feel fuller. I often find that the day after these days, where I add maybe 300 or so calories to my day, I actually LOSE weight, because my metabolism picks up again. Third, I always, always give myself a daily treat. My husband keeps a stash of individually wrapped chocolates, truffles and things, hidden away in a secret location, and if I do well during the day and want a chocolate, he gives one to me. It's a little treat I look forward to at the end of every day, and it's no more than 65-70 calories. I never, ever feel deprived, because I can have something small like that every day. It's not always candy either - sometimes I have a half cup of gelato, or a cookie, or a some other treat. But I never deprive myself from all my goodies, or I'll have a binge day.

    I set up this system at the beginning of the year, and the last time I compulsively broke down and had a binge day was at the end of January, only a few weeks since I'd started my system and was still working it out (my calories were still too low). It really does help.
    2573 days ago

    I honestly don't have any answers for the self sabotage, other than keep your eye on your goals. I'm impressed with the
    boot camp workout....I'm not brave enough for that. Hang in
    there. I've noticed that healthy habits happen over time. emoticon
    2573 days ago
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