Slow and Steady II

Saturday, May 07, 2011

Hi everyone,
I’m re-learning that slow and steady is best.
Last year I lost a lot in six months and then in the next six months I put half of it back on!
So, this year, I’m aiming to take it slower and steadier.
I found out that people who had a sexually abusive childhood (I did) need to lose the weight really slowly. This is because the extra weight feels like protection and as we lose the weight, it releases all sorts of difficult emotions. We need time to deal with the feelings.
It was such a revelation to find this out.
For me, as I lose weight, I sometimes seem to feel panicky and then start having cravings and want to eat more. It’s as though I’m scared to lose the protective layers of fat.
Since I’ve found this out, I’m being even kinder to myself.
I finally understand why it’s so hard emotionally.
Now I’m aiming to lose the weight very slowly – just 2lbs a month and it seems to be working so far.
I lost a couple of lbs and felt panicky and put a little back on but I’m breathing through the difficult feelings and dealing with emotional issues as they arise.
Most importantly I don’t feel like a failure!
I had been criticising myself for not having enough willpower (not me, I’m so disciplined and determined).
What’s interesting is that I really love my body at the moment.
I had been criticising my fat and hating myself. Feeling victimised by it almost. I was thinking “why are you still on my body?”
Now I feel differently. I am fine with the bit of extra weight. I think “wow, you’re really trying to help me aren’t you?”
I focus on feeling safe, knowing I’m safe and letting the fat leave me!
I’m just not fighting against it any more. I feel I’m working WITH it.
And the consequences are great! I feel better in my body. So much better.
I’m happier walking down the street, wearing pretty skirts, showing off my curves and I’m definitely more relaxed in the bedroom department (bonus!) so my husband’s happier too!
That’s a success!!
Lots of love everyone,
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    Totally fantastic blog. Thank you for making the correlation between losing weight and abusive childhoods. That would definitely explain my many revelations about myself in the last 14+ months.

    You are spot on !

    And you are quite fabulous as well.

    2542 days ago
    Thank you for sharing your experience, I can relate to the feeling of the fat being a protection I have used it to hide behind to be unattractive and blend into the background.

    At my age now I just want to lose weight to feel more energetic and look good in my office clothes for work and not have rolls of fat over hanging my waistbands..

    lol liz

    2546 days ago
    Felt so good to read this. For sure, everyone should try more to work with their bodies rather than working against them. Nothing comes to us without a reason. I'm so glad your thoughts go in this way, wishing you all the best on your journey!
    2546 days ago
    Good for you! I'm glad you're making these realizations and learning how to make your journey comfortable. I too was sexually abused as a child and many of your words rang true for me as well.

    Thanks so much for sharing this here ~ it is surely going to help others.

    2546 days ago
  • -POOKIE-

    2546 days ago
    Great article.
    2546 days ago
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