Saturday, May 07, 2011
I have been away for many months. It took some courage to log in to start all over again. I started into a relationship with someone I'd known 14 years ago- he looked for me and found me on facebook. He promises to be faithful; however I have an iota of doubt in that statement because someone else had told me that and had lied to me. We love each other. We respect each other and all that good stuff. The issue here is the relationship is a long distant relationship. We can only talk on phone and chat over the internet. We want to be together-we believe that time will come sooner or later.
Well, being a single mom and having a long distant relationship are huge loads so I rarely take some time and focus on me.I feel like I am one more huge load too. I really should carry my load first which I continue putting aside. As a child I had learnt to not focus on myself or things I liked; I have lived that way till today. Starting from today to unlearn that and to know to treat myself as fairly as I treat others. Today I will make it my day to focus on me-I will love myself, be kind to myself, stop beating myself, I will not give my energy to yelling unnecessarily, take a warm bath.