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I am fat (and I don't mean PHAT)

Wednesday, May 04, 2011

Yep, I said it. And I'm not sorry.

In the past 18 months I cannot BELIEVE how I've let myself go. I keep telling myself "Oh, it's only about 10-15 lbs." ONLY 10-15 POUNDS?!?! Really? Since when is gaining back all the weight I worked hard to lose acceptable? ONLY?!

I put on a pair of pants today that a year ago I needed a belt to keep over my ass. This morning they were so tight that it's uncomfortable to wear them!

I went on vacation last week and had to buy new shorts in a bigger size because none of my shorts/capri pants fit me from last year.

Top it all off with the fact that I just stopped my birth control because I'd like to get pregnant in the next couple months. At this weight I'm going to be a ballooooooon!!!!

I'm so mad, so angry at myself. My eating habits haven't changed horribly (except for that day I ate 4 waffles for dinner...) but I haven't worked out in months. My treadmill has been in a corner since November, unused.

Where the hell is my water? I need a drink.
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    Sometimes we need a good kick in the butt, you know the kind of day that seems to turn your life around. It sounds like, ... maybe, ... you just had yours. Embrace it, feed off of the passion that you felt that day, to carry you through.

    We'll be rooting for you!

    2573 days ago
  • DIANE7786
    Don't call yourself names! Would you tell your best friend she's fat (not PHAT) or would you gently encourage her to eat properly and exercise? I'm convinced that when we think and say positive things about ourselves it's easier to enjoy eating healthy, exercising and looking our best in each clothing size as we ease toward our weight goal.
    2573 days ago
  • CANDOK1260
    I suggest you join a team with a challenge you find instreating hard to do it alone
    2574 days ago
    It's good to "be real", and it's even better to be determined!

    From my own experience... it's good to be "in a good place" with eating and exercise before you get pregnant, because it will make the pregnancy sooooo much easier. You'll also feel soooo much better after the baby arrives.

    Good luck! I'll be cheering you on!
    2574 days ago
    You know what you need to do! Have that water, dust off the treadmill and good luck with the weight loss (and conception).
    2574 days ago
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