April was definitely showers but May will be flowers!

Monday, May 02, 2011

This morning on my drive to work, I was thinking about all of my patients who are not able to make the necessary changes in their life, health wise, like I can. And I started feeling guilty because I have a healthy - albeit over-weight - body and I purposely abuse it with the junk I give it and the exercise I withhold from it. More, I am taking advantage of a precious gift that God has given me, so basically I am slapping him in the face. And of course the inevitable question of "why?" follows those thoughts.

The month of April was a total slack off month for me and I don't know why. I like my clothes fitting loosely. I like compliments of weight loss. I like the healthy food I was eating. So why the hell did I stop??? I think that is the $64,000 question that we all wrestle with at some point on our journey - and probably more than once!

So, what is my game plan? I need to start exercising again because when I exercise it encourages me to eat right and it boosts my serotonin which in turn makes me feel good and floods my body and mind with positive vibes. Without exercise, I fail, which in retrospect is probably why I started slacking with my eating habits. I had many instances last month where other things took place of my scheduled exercise time and of course I did not do the exercise at another point throughout the day.

But damnit, enough is enough! I want to look and feel good about myself and not slide backwards. So, tomorrow morning, I am going to weigh myself, which I have not done in about 3 weeks, hold myself accountable for my actions, and then move forward. I want to have a great summer! I want to take pictures of myself and actually like them! I want to chronicle my life through said pictures because up to this point, I don't have much to show that I have lived. How sad.

So, goodbye April showers and hello May's beautiful flowers! I will nurture and water myself and bloom just as beautifully!
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    Beautifully put. No regrets, just moving forward from today on...I'm with you!
    3215 days ago
  • DEANSGAL2010
    I agree.....sometimes we fall off the wagon..with no reason---I think it's called LIFE :) You can do this....I can do this! I'm back on strong ....
    3217 days ago
    It's not how many times you fall, but the fact that you continue to get back up. Dust yourself off and move on. Persistence and consistency will win in the end.
    3218 days ago
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