April was definitely showers but May will be flowers!
Monday, May 02, 2011
This morning on my drive to work, I was thinking about all of my patients who are not able to make the necessary changes in their life, health wise, like I can. And I started feeling guilty because I have a healthy - albeit over-weight - body and I purposely abuse it with the junk I give it and the exercise I withhold from it. More, I am taking advantage of a precious gift that God has given me, so basically I am slapping him in the face. And of course the inevitable question of "why?" follows those thoughts.
The month of April was a total slack off month for me and I don't know why. I like my clothes fitting loosely. I like compliments of weight loss. I like the healthy food I was eating. So why the hell did I stop??? I think that is the $64,000 question that we all wrestle with at some point on our journey - and probably more than once!
So, what is my game plan? I need to start exercising again because when I exercise it encourages me to eat right and it boosts my serotonin which in turn makes me feel good and floods my body and mind with positive vibes. Without exercise, I fail, which in retrospect is probably why I started slacking with my eating habits. I had many instances last month where other things took place of my scheduled exercise time and of course I did not do the exercise at another point throughout the day.
But damnit, enough is enough! I want to look and feel good about myself and not slide backwards. So, tomorrow morning, I am going to weigh myself, which I have not done in about 3 weeks, hold myself accountable for my actions, and then move forward. I want to have a great summer! I want to take pictures of myself and actually like them! I want to chronicle my life through said pictures because up to this point, I don't have much to show that I have lived. How sad.
So, goodbye April showers and hello May's beautiful flowers! I will nurture and water myself and bloom just as beautifully!