Searching for inspiration
Saturday, April 30, 2011
I lost one of my best friends this week. I still can't believe she's gone. I just want to talk to her one more time. I've been thinking a lot about our conversations and the good times. She always encouraged me. I know I couldn't have made it through these last few years without her. I know she was proud of me for moving and going to graduate school, even though it meant we would be far away. I miss her.
I want to honor her memory by doing all of the things I hoped we would do together. By really living my life. Sometimes I get so depressed and I just waste the day away thinking about imperfections, annoyances and troubles. Sometimes I just want a day to end so I don't have to think about things anymore. I'm going to put a stop to that now. I think about how much she would have wanted to be here, to watch her son grow up, to spend time with her husband and laugh with friends.
She wanted me to be happy, to go after what I really wanted, to live my life. And that's exactly what I intend to do. Its going to be hard, but I have a new inspiration. I appreciate a new day and another chance.
I miss you Frances. I love you. Oh, and happy birthday!