Thursday, April 28, 2011

The last blog I wrote was Oct 30th..4 weeks before my daughters wedding. I was determined to lose more weight before the wedding and I did. However, there was Thanksgiving dinner and I did wonderful because the wedding was in 2 days so I couldn't blow what I had done or wouldn't fit in the dress.
The day after the wedding...I had my pecan pie and anything else I hadn't allowed my self to have. I could breathe! The beginning of my downfall.
My mom moved back to KY to live with me at Thanksgiving. She is in stage 4 of COPD and very bad health. She's been in and out of the hospital since February.
Something I had forgotten about my mom since hadn't lived around her in over 3 yrs is how much she LOVES sweets! She has to have something sweet at the very least twice a day and she has diabetes! Her blood sugar is usually under control unless she is on prednisone.
I had gotten pretty good with my sweet addiction until then. I am only good at it when it's not staring me in the face. I try buying her things that I don't like but she asks for specific things at times so I have to get it for her. I got on the scales yesterday and have gained 9.7 lbs back since the wedding Nov 27th.
I was so upset with myself. I am at 199.7!! My highest weight was 217 and it seemed like I would never get below 200. I was so proud of that.
So I've used the excuse of Thanksgiving, Christmas, mom being in the hospital so having to eat cafeteria food most of the time, buying junk food for mom, now Easter candy.
EXCUSES!!!! That's all they are! I have to get back to that healthier lifestyle. Today I actually exercised with a thing that mom's occupational therapist left for her. Only did it for my arms and just a few minutes but that is the most exercise I've had since February so I'm proud to have accomplished that much!
It's very difficult for me to walk so I'm going to start doing the chair exercises again.
I CAN DO THIS WITH GOD's HELP and Spark People!!!!! I was more successful while on Spark People that with anything else I've ever tried. You would think that I would have not let myself stray from it but I let life get in the way instead of allowing it to be part of a more hectic and stressful life. Praying for strength to not move away from all my wonderful friends here who are so supportive.
Thank you Spark People and friends!! Time to begin a new journey!!
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  • FRAN0426
    Good you have come back to sparks friends, whats done is past, coming back is the right step to take. The exercise is also good, you do what your able to do with the exercising and watch the nutrition and you'll be losing those nine pounds. emoticon emoticon
    3644 days ago
  • no profile photo CD2036709
    At least your back and you know what you need to work on emoticon
    3644 days ago
    Great to see you back!!!
    First, you are still in onederland, say to yourself it was 9.7 lbs and not 19.7!!!
    You seem to have a handle on the trigger, just don't squeeze it and you'll be back in your routine.
    Use your Mom's PT gear and your chair exercises, it is a great beginning.
    Does you Mom like dark chocolate? The stuff that has 70% or more cocoa…I've always liked it; hubby would turn his nose up until one day without realizing it, gobbled down a couple of squares and actually liked it. Nice part was, it gave him his fix for the day but he found that a full serving was too much. What worked for my Mom although not diabetic were the little single serve bars and keep them in the freezer.
    Doesn't seem like it was that long ago your daughter got married, time flies.

    3644 days ago
  • BOVEY63
    Welcome back! Don't beat up yourself for what has passed - you've taken the first step back to a healthier you, and that is what matters most.
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    Sending out prayers for your mom (and you as her caretaker). We lost my sons' babysitter, who was more like another grandmother and a dear friend, to COPD so I know what you are going through. I was her power of attorney and health care directive and can relate to all the time spent in and out of hospitals. Just remember to take some time for yourself every day - you really do need to do that.
    3644 days ago
  • no profile photo CD8703805
    SparkPeople and SparkFriends are the best things to happen to my journey, too. Welcome home!!
    3644 days ago
    emoticon I'm cheering for you my friend. Love, Dawn emoticon emoticon
    3644 days ago
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