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Friday, April 22, 2011

WAAAAHHOOOOO! I AM OFFICIALLY DOWN 30.2 POUNDS!!! it only took me three years, a ton of heartache, lots of bumps in the road and several "starting overs", but i did it! i have purposely resisted writing a blog, as i have bin so bizzy pep-talking myself and keeping myself on my "LIVE-IT", that i wanted to make sure i was going to stick with it this time!!! there have bin many a slip tween the cup and the lip, i can tell you that! many chips n dips n fries n "cries".....but also many more salads n veggies n fishes n fowls and jumping up and down on the scales oh my...(but i haven't broken one yet!!! either from the jumping or from my weight!!!) is a sort of a celebration day for moi... if you look at my start date on SPARKPEOPLE, you will see that i started this journey in sept. of 2008. you notice i said "this journey" i have bin on some kind of a weight loss journey for most of my life...i have lost so much weight over my life time that by all rights i should be hanging from a charm bracelet by now! i have lost the size of at least a school room of third graders, and maybe a teacher or two! my biggest loss at one time was 120 lbs. (not all at the same time! i wish it were that easy!!) i kept it off for about 10 yrs. i was pritty proud o maself i must say! but something in my psyche, and my clothing, changed...something very sinister and barely jeans started to get a little tighter, my nightie a little wider and my belt a little looser...with extra holes. i thought i knew what was going on, my dryer was old and my clothes were shrinking...yea, that was it...

unfortunately, no, that wasn't it. my clothes were not shrinking,i was growing...right back up to my comfort zone of my highest weight of 281 pounds. and just to show i was being a good sport about it, i went one more pound just to best it! by the time i was through, i was right back up in a size i thought i would never see again. i purposely had not saved any of my clothes, and even tho i love to shop, i found myself crying in dressing room after dressing room trying on larger and larger sized clothes to cover all of my mistakes...all of my out-of-control eating, binging, drinking and yes even smoking. not that that had added to my poundage, but it did add to my self esteem, or lack there-of.

suffice it to say, i was on a lonely desert road and it felt like there were no service stations around. luckily for me, i was wrong...a fellow traveler i hadn't even noticed until then recommended SPARKPEOPLE to me. and as they say..."the rest is history"! as is evident, it took a while for me to take advantage of that great service station in the desert...oh i signed up right away, but could just never seem to get enough "gas" to keep myself motivated and take off...i think a turning point for me was when my partner and i decided to travel together. i have always hated the word "diet" and my partner suggested we could call it a "Live-It". yup! worked for me! so for the last 4 months, we have bin travelin on a Live-It, and it has bin a pretty good ride! sometimes we cruise, sometimes we stop n look at the scenery n sometimes we hit a few of those bumps in the road...but we have come to learn that on this journey called a Live-It, all kinds of weather and road conditions are to be expected and we try to roll with them the best we can.

and so i have "rolled" my way to a 30.2 pound loss, and i sure ain't finished yet! stay tuned if you liked this blog, there's gonna be more where that came from, as i will be on this journey for the rest o my life i spose...n if ya didn't like it...that's o.k. too...i'm mostly jus writing this for me n my gal to read at the rest stops....i'm outta here... emoticon
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