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Just a Quick Update of Bad News, Then Sleep

Thursday, April 21, 2011

It's been a bad week. A really, really, REALLY bad week. And I'm in desperate need of support. We found out yesterday that my husband has/had colon cancer. They removed a polyp that turned out to be cancerous. Today, he was bleeding again (2nd time since the surgery almost 2 weeks ago) and they went back in. They're concerned. They've kept him in the hospital and there's talk of an arteriogram and possibly surgery. There is a possibility of another tumor. We don't know at the moment.

I'm tired right now. I'm worried and I'm scared. Normally, this would have me reaching for the chocolate, but I'm actually running the other way with it - I don't want to eat at all. I know it's not good for me and it's not helping matters any, but food is one of the last things on my mind.

So... I need support. Emotional support primarily. I need good thoughts and good wishes sent our way. I need to be reminded that not knowing doesn't necessarily mean bad news. I need virtual hugs, because I can't get a lot of the physical kind at the moment.

I'm going to be bringing the kids back to the hospital tomorrow. I don't know if he's going to be kept longer or if they're going to release him. I need to be with him. Part of me wishes that the kids had PDO tomorrow so I could be there without having to break up fights between them. But I know seeing them helps as much as seeing me does. Even when they fight.

I think I need sleep. I've been running on fumes most of today and it's only now that I'm start to feel tired. Hopefully, I'll sleep hard. And hopefully, my kids will let me sleep until I wake up on my own.
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  • SEYSARAH
    Sending you virtual hugs, positive thoughts, and many prayers your way hoping all goes well with your husband and that you get much needed sleep.
    2731 days ago
  • ANNEMARGO
    Sending love and strength your way--you and yours will get through this. emoticon emoticon
    2731 days ago
  • LAFFWITHLINDA
    Sending you thoughts of love emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon and something for you to hug.
    2734 days ago
  • KERRILA
    I read this after sending you the blog comment - I'm sending you and your family as much love, encouragement, and support as I can. Right now. And now. And now... emoticon emoticon
    2735 days ago
  • SONGOFJOY63
    You are definiately in my thoughts and prayers and I wish I was close enough to give you a hug. Be proud of yourself for sharing your emotions and concerns instead of stuffing them with food. I know you are feeling overwhelmed and frightened about the possiblities. Anytime cancer is involved there is a 50/50 chance of what the next words we hear will be but no matter what they are know that you are a strong and courageous person and above all you are not alone. Lots of love to you and your family. Please send me a personal message if you need someone to talk to.
    2735 days ago
  • AIRBO1
    I am keeping you all in my thoughts and prayers today. I know what it's like to get bad news that has you reeling and leaving you puzzled, scared, and just short of freaking out. Please just take a few minutes to breath and find calm in the storm and take care of yourself too. Everything is going to be alright.

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    2735 days ago
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