hello world

Ok, so I'm not much for blogging. I internalize everything so I'm going to do my best to start this up again because I'm told it helps if you can get your thoughts down, not necessarily so that anyone can/will read them but more for your own peace of mind.

I'm starting to get really frustrated. I've been eating fantastically (with my allotted cheat meals), sticking to the Zone diet per my trainer (which spark meals pretty much follow along the same principles just not quite a strictly so it helps), work out with Lauren 2 x's per week, and still have not lost but maybe 5 lbs. That 5 lbs however I personally believe is water weight because I gain it and lose it like nobodies business. I need to get this weight off of me so that I can get on life and feel better about myself, not to mention get off all these damn medications! I've had my thyroid tested (checked out just fine), I've been tested for diabetes (just fine), so now where to go?

If I can get the weight off then a lot of my other symptoms would be alleviated, however the damn weight will not come off!!! Do I need to work out more? Sorry forgot to mention I work out 3 times a week at home as well for 30 min as directed by my trainer. Eating less doesn't do anything but make me very dizzy, have headaches, turn into a royal biatch, and makes my GERD act up which makes me have esophogeal spasms which suck. I'm at a point where I don't know what to do now. It seems like everyone else, those who work hard and those who don't, still loose the weight and then there's me who is about ready to hack it off myself lol....don't worry only joking on that last statement. GRRRRRRRRR