rumor has it.
Tuesday, April 12, 2011
I've been off my game every since Friday night. Because Friday night, my live-in ex and I had a moment that has turned in to a weekend of some of the best conversation and open communication we've ever had. I'm a little hopeful that we might figure out this whole thing. I'm also terrified that all the progress I've made in being okay on my own will be lost if we try again and fail. Basically, I'm a mess. A mess who was at 277.5 for 3 days and is now at 281 again. And the only things different are I haven't been getting enough water or getting to the gym. That shouldn't equal 4 lbs because I haven't been messing up my diet at all. But I need to figure out how to spend time at the gym when I'm not using it to avoid my house. I need a new plan. Even if it turns out to only be temporary. It seems like every week, I need a new plan. This is getting frustrating.
1) I have got to sleep at least a little bit more or I am not going to be okay.
2) I am not going to make the ITC challenge this week because I missed Sunday AND Yesterday but I'd like to finish it out anyway. Its Leg Press day.
3) 45 minutes Elliptical. 1 mile Treadmill. At da gym.
4) Tonight at work, I need to figure out a new plan. I'm thinking right now that adjusting my rest day from Wednesdays to Mondays might be the first step. I'm trying to think how that will affect personal training and if a P90X lift day would be a personal training day but I don't think it would... T-R-S would be strength days with PT on F... I think that could work. It will set my P90X schedule off from my BL challenge sched but that's not really important. I'd actually rather have the opportunity to not have my rest day be the same day as my last chance work out day.