Size Of Being Comfortable In My Skin

Monday, April 11, 2011

As I often share, I did not love myself more when I was a size 2 or a size 26.

The reason why is that it was never about the size of my body, it was always about the size of my life.

The key to the size of my life is knowing and voicing what is in my heart.

I had to diet all the way up the scale to 266 pounds and finally accept that I would not be defined by the siZe of my body, before I could actually care enough about myself enough to take care of myself.

When I started to be comfortable in my skin at 266 pounds it meant and continues to mean today, no matter what my size that I do not do any of the following;

1) Start my morning by seeing what the size of my stomach is;

2) Spend the rest of the morning upset because "nothing looks good";

3) I no longer decide if I am eating breakfast, by trying to think about what I am eating the rest of the day. Each meal and meal time is based on whether or not my body is physically hungry;

4) I no longer reject or accept invitations to parties, drinks,dinner, weddings or the beach based on whether I have something to wear or based on how I think I look;

5) Having sex is no longer based on how fat I feel, it is based on me being present in my body which has carried me through thick and thin, and how conected I feel to my ppartner;

6) I am not waiting for my problems to be solved by my attaining a certain weight or body size;

7) in fact, I am not waiting, I am living my life in the preent moment;

8) I finally value myself beyond my body size;

9) I finally love myself; and

10) I have finally come home, to my own body!!!

Have a large sized day and a large sized life!!!!

10) I have finally come home, to my own body!!!
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  • KMIRANDA2000
    Love it!
    2627 days ago
    Thanks. Natalie,it has really been a process for me and at times it still is, but yes I m in a better place and it is so worth it. Steffy as I wrote on your page yesterday, I think that there will be more and more people like us, embracing a new and better relationship with our body whatever the size.
    2629 days ago
    Congratulations on feeling good! This is a really inspiring post. I can relate to some of your points, and others not so much, but hopefully, with time, I'll be right there alongside you, living in the moment, with no obsession holding me down. Thanks so much for posting!!

    2629 days ago
  • STEFFY_33
    I'm happy to see someone who see think the same way as me... Like in my last blog i post : ''What's with the BEING THIN obsession'' I think it's more important the way we feel and how healthy we feel then the number on the scale.
    Apparently, my healthy weight for my size should be between 118 and 133 pounds. My goal right now is to be around 175-180, that's when i'll feel good...but if i feel good at 200, great...if i need to lose more weight...i'll do so...but i'll see how i feel...the number on the scale will just be an information regarding my will not be the definition of me...
    Thanks for posting this blog :o)

    2630 days ago
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