Help - I know I can do this!
Thursday, April 07, 2011
Try not to be negative - I mean REALLY. There's nothing worse than reading someone's pitty party over and over again. But I think I have to blog about my flaws in order to discover what it is that is holding me back. It's like there is a huge rope tied around my waist that keeps pulling me back.
I begin every week with great intentions - going to exercise everyday for at least 20 minutes, eat healthy, avoid temptations, etc. etc. etc. Then, I seem to fall off for some little reason or another. Monday rolls around and I'm back at it again. Horrible horrible roller coaster that I don't want to be on.
I am very busy between work, kids, husband, friends and everything else you can throw in the mix. My regular job is about 40 hours/week. My second job is about 10-20 but I get behind and stress so much over it. It's very flexible - I usually go out there when no one else is there for peace and quiet. Problem is that it's kind of scary. They were robbed a couple months ago and my husband really doesn't want me there too late by myself. I don't want to be there either. It's not that it's a bad place, just out away from town and the robbers happened to be someone who knew what they were doing and took exactly what they wanted in a hurry.
OK, I hate making excuses so I'm going to call this "identifying the problem". I know many are busy and have found their niche that works for them. I just really want to find the one for me. I have the tools here at SP but I don't always get to log in. Funny thing is that I upgraded my cell phone last month and one of the main reasons for going with the android was to have SP with me all the time. Bad thing is, I don't know how to use it to the fullest. I can find foods in the search but cannot find the ones I've manually entered. Hopefully, I can find someone who knows a little more about this that can help me.
I have all the tools I need to be successful but I'm pretty sure that I let temptation over-rule my know-better attitude. My goal is to take one day - just one day - tomorrow and make it through without falling off the wagon. I know I can do it - just gotta find deep down inside me the will power to shut down the monster of destruction.