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Wednesday, April 06, 2011

Seems I get going, then I quit!

Why is it that it was so easy to stay on track for 6-7 months last year, and now, when I KNOW first hand how important it is for my health, is it so hard to keep it together for more that a few days! emoticon grr!

On the 23rd of March, I got a call from my sister. Her husband was in the hospital, his body too weak to even go through his dialysis, and they did not expect him to make it 48 hours! I went to the hospital and stayed with my sister and her son, until, at 7pm Bob quietly and peacefully left this world! Though it was the best outcome for him (his quality of life had become so poor), it has made for a tough couple of weeks...and that is my excuse for ignoring all of my sparkfriends, to whom I owe so much!
It is just one, in a long list of excuses, that have kept me from getting my focus back, and the most frustrating part is that I know what I need to do, I have done it before, for months!, in spite of 'the excuses' - so what, in the name of all that is good, is my PROBLEM?
I don't know!
But I can't just give up!
And I am going to pray that I get my 'mojo' back!
And I am going to pray for all of my sparkfriends that find themselves in similar situations!
Cautiously I say, Let's Spark-on, Let's really just make it happen and Spark On!

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    I am so sorry to hear about your brother-in-law emoticon Life gets crazy some times and we get off track, the important part is knowing that we have to get back on track!! emoticon It seems there are alot of us that are struggling and trying to get our emoticon s back in a row !! Let's take it one day at a time and I know we can get back to a healthy life!
    3023 days ago
    I'm so sorry for your loss - know that in times like this it is easy to fall back into old habbits and that is ok - just make a plan for yourself and stop beating yourself up - you have had one busy few weeks and so many emotions I'm sure - so here's a plan - each day do just one good thing for you - one healthy choice - one walk - one extra glass of water a day - just one thing - you will be so surprised how that one a day grows and grows - but the key - no guilt - you are worth the effort you are making - so take care of you - all I see in inspiration so remember that! and stay strong!
    3084 days ago
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    Judy, my condolences to you, your sister and her family.

    As others have mentioned, please don't be overly hard on yourself... This has been an intense year for you. Baby steps (if you can manage that) are better than no steps. But by no means am I trying to push you. I can't truly know your situation and what or how grief affects a person. Just please know that you have many here on Spark who are rooting for you when you feel able to get back to Sparking. If not, we're still here for you!

    3084 days ago
    Oh, Judy, I am so sorry for your sister and your is so understandable why you haven't been on track...alot going on in your life this past year...please think about you and all you have to live for and look forward are too important to just let your health slip you by...get your mojo back...only you can do it!!! God bless! emoticon emoticon
    3084 days ago
    Hugs to you...and your sister, too. I am sorry for her loss. You've been through a lot the past few months and it's understandable that you have difficulty staying on track. Continue to do what you can (and you've been doing amazing, by the way) and little by little, you'll get your *mojo* back. Stay strong!
    3084 days ago
    Prayers for your sister and her family in their loss.
    3084 days ago
    I'm just glad to see you. Make your own mojo, that's my advice. You can't wait for it to appear. Push forward, push through, kick your own butt until you are kicking the world's butt.

    My condolences for Bob's passing. I hope that he has left behind a wealth of fond memories for all those he loved and cared about.
    3084 days ago
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